Sorry for not having updated yesterday guys, I just wanted to be alone and not think of anything.
The realization that my life is over has finally hit me, and it's like being on the receiving end of a bullet, except for there being depression instead of physical pain as a result. Which I suppose can only help me at this point, but nonetheless it's not very pleasant.
I've been ignoring any phonecalls I've been getting, and I haven't opened the door for anyone anymore these past few days, even when my mother came to visit me with my sis yesterdayI just pretended I wasn't in. I guess they must be getting worried.
They'll know soon enough what's going on with me.
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I do believe that you really want 2 live grl.. You love Ur sister, U don't want her 2 choose this way, do you? Show her the right way instead and use ur head...
Oooooh! What a relief!! :-D Now I understood that this is a fakeblogg.. Thank U Tania (or whatever Ur name is) U've opened my eyes for sure... ! Thank U 4 that!
you wont kill yourself, you're a fucking idiot. If u want to be famous make porn movies IDIOT.
Dear Tania,
I just found that you are a French speaking Belgian.
Yes, yesterday we talk about learning English... It is inevitable that the circulation of English be so popular.
I just want to say that sometimes one should keep one's tradition as well as learning something new.
I believed that every generation have already be developing its own way, but, if we lost our tradition, we lose our origin and no further new things can be developped.
Therefore I suggested that on one hand, we learn English; on the other hand, we promote French, Spainsh, Chinese, and Latin as the four international language to replace English.
I hope that French regain its lost status; Spanish is also easy to leran, it is a phonetic language and prevails in Latin America, the second populous tongue in the United States of America; Chinese also has many speakers throughout the world and its is the only extant ideogram which has developed throughout these 5,000 years; Latin, its permanance ...
This world is capricious, no one can deny; we have to try make it permanent...
Go to www.youtube.com and enter "Tridentine Mass".
Your Catholic friend.
can we fuck first?
Only problem about having a 90 day blog about (not) killing yourself is that after about 30 days, you just want her to off herself for real because her blogs are so boring and pointless.
TITS OR GTFO
??r u really gunna kill ur self?? lol
hey, how do you kill your self? i read your blog all the way from sweden!
get a life noob
Si tu as vraiment l'intention de te tuer, laisse moi savoir deux ou trois trucs, alors si tu es curieuse de savoir ce que je veux, trouve moi à MAETProductions@hotmail.com
et je te répondrai
Knorse
Stop with this shit and post some photos of you naked dammit!
I agree, if she's going to kill herself, I say she post some pictures of her naked in all sorts of poses and possibly a video of herself masturbating with her fingers and various toys.
hoax
http://www.nee-antwerpen.be/index-eng.htm
Drowning seems to be the most literary way to commit suicide: Werther in Goethe's The Sorrows of Young Werther, Ophelia in Shakespeare's Hamlet, hints of drowning in Edgar Allen Poe's Annabell Lee, and of course the references to "Death by Water" in T. S. Eliot's The Wasteland and in Samuel Taylor Coleridge's The Rhyme of the Ancient Mariner. The English Romantic poet Percy Shelley -- husband of Mary Shelley whom created Frankenstein -- died by drowning on July 8, 1822.
There are even ways to die by drowning in World of Warcraft and the notion of death by water plays a large role in the movie The Ring.
The song American depression era song made popular by Billie Holiday "Gloomy Sunday" is said to have been played by many lovelorn people of that time before they committed suicide, and quite a few of them died by drowning as well.
(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gloomy_Sunday
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=48cTUnUtzx4&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4WBZwLkvpFI&feature=related
http://www.lyricsfreak.com/b/billie+holiday/gloomy+sunday_20017999.html
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Billie_Holiday)
Also Lou Reed's Berlin album has similar effects:
(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lou_Reed
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Berlin_(album)
and Tom Waits song poem "The Ocean Doesn't Want Me Today" on his Bone Machine album deals with an attempt by the narrator to drown himself in the ocean yet he discovers that the ocean simply doesn't want him on that day.
(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Wrw-ojKZtE
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tom_Waits)
Also in modern film there is a sexually romantic connection to the image of beautiful young women slitting their wrists with razor blades and dying in bathtubs. (See Zalman King's movie pilot for the series The Red Shoe Diaries starring David Duchovny, Brigitte Bako, and Billy Wirth for one example).
I know that you guys are film buffs. I am too. I especially love the films of the French director Jean Rollin. Many of his films take place at a beach called Dieppe. That I would love to be able to visit sometime. Even though that would be beyond my means nows as I live in the US and am not very wealthy. In one of his films set at this location -- Lips of Blood (Lèvres de sang (1975)); we set a very romantic / fairy talesque scene at the very end where the main protagonist and his vampyric (sp) love place themselves in a coffin on the beach and then float off into the ocean and unknown. He has several films that featured shots on this beach. Dieppe, like Dover Beach in England, and its white sands must be one of the most poetic, romantic and picturesque places on earth to die by drowning.
(http://www.imagesjournal.com/issue09/reviews/jeanrollin/lips.htm
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0073324/
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jean_Rollin)
Can you send me nude pics before you kill yourself? Thanks.
rwrobp@gmail.com
I love how you fuckers are taking this seriously. Bitch just wants attention. and if she really is going to commit suicide then let her. If she's stupid enough to just commit suicide just to commit it then I feel no loss. One less person, and an attention whore at that. Fuck her.
Fuck your BloG!!! Ohohohoh . Are you happy now? You are famous!Unfortunately if you die i dont care. U wont kill yourself i bet , get naked instead!! TITS or KILL YOURSELF !!
I will become an attention whore in 90 days.
I dont know what to say. I have written everything sense your first day, and I'm started to believe that youre not going to live about a couple of few days. Damn, I'm crying right now.. i wanted to choose this way about two years ago, but then i realized how much i would hurt my mother, my father, my brothers and my friends.. If you do this, I'm quit sure that I'll gonna do it to. If you can - I can.. :'(
Do you think this is funny??To have a blogg about killing your self.You must be real sick man,sick,sick,sick.You have fucking no respect at all.
People are so dumb. Congratulations on your aids.
Yewr a pretty female. dun't dew it :C
Remember what Nike says. "Just do it."
Really, it's taking forever, for fuck's sake.
Uh, can you film it for me somehow? I'd like to see it.
So what will you do?
I'd go with pills.
Good luck, hope you die :D
ow, come'on!!! Don't be so stupid, please, you dont need a blog to kill yourself, just kill, its simple, the world have enough persons, the human its a super population... your live make no difference in the world, if you are going to kill yourself why you dont makes with honor? Kill yourself trying to kill some politician who killed another life, thats a good idea!
Did you know because some stupid politician are having your tea time a thousand people are dying, why dont you make it with honor!?
7 days left! arf, i wanna see you die NOW !
allez finis en tout de suite
Anonymous said...
"If u want to be famous make porn movies IDIOT."
Gotta agree with that!
Please dont put your faith in Nihilism it will only lead to death eternal. Look around you and see the complexity of nature and even your own self. You are a beautiful woman with radical thoughts that may lead people in the next generation of thinking.
Haha. Attention whore. Even if you are going to kill yourself, why have people all across the web discuss it? Why link to comments every update?
Can you please get Athene or someone to film you when you commit suicide so that we have proof that you are actually dead?
:)
GRRRRR! Tania...if u are really serious just kill yourself. I see you as an undecided person that needs atention. So...just...make your mind already! And I still don't understand why you had to wait 90 days...but whatever... "you wont kill yourself, you're a fucking idiot. If u want to be famous make porn movies IDIOT" that's really...funny :)
you won't do it, what you mean is that you are just not going to blog anymore or, gonna chicken out and the last blog will be like 6-7 paragraphs about how you just couldn't do it and that everyone loves you and you don't want to let them down, THIS WHOLE THING IS JUST TO BOOST OTHERS SELF ESTEEM
Thats so easy, Good bye guys im about to suicide in 5 seconds see ya
OMFG HE DID IT I SAW HIM! GUYS ALL SEND ME DONATIONS BECAUSE HE KILLED HIS SELF
... I shooted my feet instead... ouch
send me pics [at] elvis@intheholecs.net
Do it prefably before the suicide, im not into gore blood porn although id quite willingly give you a rainbow kiss.
safe
gosseti
fuck you whore-troll.
na het bekijken van de athene clips en de "nee" info weet ik niet wat ik hier van moet denken.
Ik vind het goed dat het ter discussie gesteld word maar ik begin te twijfelen of je het echt gaat doen.
iemand die al eerder sex heeft belooft (de virgin campanje) en de verkiezingen en er geen bevesteging is of de belofte zijn nagekomen maken geen betrouwbare indruk.
ik ben het eens dat dit blog een vorm is van aandacht vragen maar dat op zich is natuurlijk ook weer een uiting van een probleem.
This is a farce. Not only is she lying to the world about killing herself...She's Lying to the world about killing herself~!
One poster said she was going to do it too. Tania is a selfish self centered individual without suicidal tendencies, commited to see someone else do it. How sick. May God have mercy on your soul Tania.
please don't die...
I respect your decision that you have made, but its still your decision to Not do it.. whatever the reason may be. I happened to pass by this website because my friend watches it...
I thought about suicide too.. but I changed my mind (due to many reasons that can't be counted).. Its my belief that I should try to find the truth with all my streng before I die, or die trying... I believe we live in objective reality where some values can't be changed..
Seeing your blog left me with a choice whether to just pass by as if I didn't care, but I decided to write something because deep inside I know I will regret not writing anything. However, rest assured I'm not writing anything down in such a way to change your opinion. I respect the choice you have made.. I just think that if I were you, I'd want more time than the 7 days that are left to think through about many aspect and perspectives in life....
many people dont give a fuk what happens to you or your choice to die. but many more people will be happy if you lived...
when I tried to kill myself, It was easy compared to living one more day.. I didnt give a damn what people said or thought of me, since I will die anyways and wont see their faces again..
I would like to share some stories with you but, since its very personal, I hesitate to post it on the blog...
people think that there should be a 'reason' to live or a 'reason' to die... but my reason for me to go on living is to live one more day to learn about the world around me to apply those knowledge to deduce what objective reality is. I think that the concept 'belief' is not something anyone should have freedom to choose, but something that must be undeniable (since i believe in objective reality with definite polarity)
btw to those that think she is faking it, FUCK U!
and to those that make stupid comments that are not thoughtful, GO FUCK YOUR OWN BRAIN OUT!
last of all, Tania, i really want you to think this over... I believe that you set apart these 90 days untill your day to die to think over whatever you have in mind.. Its still your choice to make decision on whether you should die or not. I trust that you dont rely on other people's opinion on this matter to make this decision. Its your decision. I hope that you've gained insurmountable insight during the past ~90 days... and I hope that insight will help you decide what path to take.....
thank you for reading this reply
one luv,
Daniel
please don't die...
I respect your decision that you have made, but its still your decision to Not do it.. whatever the reason may be. I happened to pass by this website because my friend watches it...
I thought about suicide too.. but I changed my mind (due to many reasons that can't be counted).. Its my belief that I should try to find the truth with all my streng before I die, or die trying... I believe we live in objective reality where some values can't be changed..
Seeing your blog left me with a choice whether to just pass by as if I didn't care, but I decided to write something because deep inside I know I will regret not writing anything. However, rest assured I'm not writing anything down in such a way to change your opinion. I respect the choice you have made.. I just think that if I were you, I'd want more time than the 7 days that are left to think through about many aspect and perspectives in life....
many people dont give a fuk what happens to you or your choice to die. but many more people will be happy if you lived...
when I tried to kill myself, It was easy compared to living one more day.. I didnt give a damn what people said or thought of me, since I will die anyways and wont see their faces again..
I would like to share some stories with you but, since its very personal, I hesitate to post it on the blog...
people think that there should be a 'reason' to live or a 'reason' to die... but my reason for me to go on living is to live one more day to learn about the world around me to apply those knowledge to deduce what objective reality is. I think that the concept 'belief' is not something anyone should have freedom to choose, but something that must be undeniable (since i believe in objective reality with definite polarity)
btw to those that think she is faking it, FUCK U!
and to those that make stupid comments that are not thoughtful, GO FUCK YOUR OWN BRAIN OUT!
last of all, Tania, i really want you to think this over... I believe that you set apart these 90 days untill your day to die to think over whatever you have in mind.. Its still your choice to make decision on whether you should die or not. I trust that you dont rely on other people's opinion on this matter to make this decision. Its your decision. I hope that you've gained insurmountable insight during the past ~90 days... and I hope that insight will help you decide what path to take.....
thank you for reading this reply
one luv,
Daniel
to those reading what tanya wrote the last 90 days:
don't you think shes trying to hard for a person who is not about to die? if I am not considering suicide, I wouldn't write much on such website...
THX 4 DUN THIS FER ALL OF UZ OUT DAR
Lol, I can only laugh reading these comments, I won't tell your secret :O
P.S. I know it isnt sexy ;)
eww creeeep... what a creep.. LOL geeez something like this is WAYY too fake.. I mean some authority would've found you at what? the star of your what.. 10th mb 30th blog? if you want something FAMOUS then I suggest.. some hacking shiet and make a vid of killing your self live where on every channel its you yeaa that would be pretty messed LOLZZZ imo any who TAKE CARE CREEEP
I'm from Mexico city and I want to tell you that is a great thing what you are doing, even all the neutrality thing is a good thing.
After all an extreme world needs extreme solutions.
Good luck and best wishes, people like you make a difference in this world full of assholes and some of them leave their sign here.
This would be six days, retard.
THIS IS A BIG SLAPPED ON THE FACE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARE TRYING TO SCARE THE ENTIRE HUMANITY BY SENDING SUICIDE BOMBER TO KILL MANY PEOPLE AND HURTING MANY OTHERS JUST TO EXPRESS THEIR ANGER, BELIEFS, FUNDAMENTALS AND OTHER METHOD THAT IS AGAINST THEIR DOCTRINES.
UNLIKE TANIA, SHE WILL DO IT ALONE, NOT TO VICTIMIZED OTHER PEOLPLE WHO ARE SURELY INNOCENT TO HER PURPOSE. ABSOLUTELY THERE WILL BE SOME PEOPLE WHO WILL BE EMOTIONALLY AND SPIRITUALLY AFFECTED.
Although I suspect that this blog is possibly bollocks, I'd just like to say to you and to anyone else who's considering suicide because their life is all pain and such, that whatever 'problems' you think you have, pale to insignificance next to other's.
Compare your life to someone with real problems, like a woman who's just had her legs blown off by a landmine, or a child who gets raped by their family members, or someone who has a hideous disfiguring disease, or a person suffering a terrible mental disorder, or a woman who gets beaten by her drug-addict husband. Even if your own problems are equal to things such as these, there is always more in the world and always more to life. You're dead a long time so be thankful to be alive and make the most of it.
I also firmly believe that anyone who tells people that they're going to kill themselves is unlikely to do it. The internet is a good way to pretend. I met a young man who within 5 minutes of introducing himself, told me that "I've tried to kill myself six times", to which I responded, "Then why are you still alive?".
I'm all for the human population getting smaller. So if you're looking for pity then don't look at me.
A school friend of mine announced to me her plans for suicide, and I told her go ahead, I won't stop you. Strangely she's still around today.
Of all the many replies to these posts of yours, I doubt you'll take extra time to read mine. I don't really care, do what you want, i don't care.
Will there be some sort of an uplifting moral message at the end?
Oh yes, and if you have to force yourself to feel depressed, then you obviously have had doubts. "If in doubt, don't" as they say. Since you had to convince yourself to be sad and are trying to find reasons to hate your family, then I don't think you'll do it.
i want to fuck u tania. ur so fucking hot. See u in heaven, as you suicide, so will I.
http://ipower.movielol.org/suicide.php
idiot.
ipower.movielol.org/suicide.php
Pls dont end your life, u are so beautiful and love your videos with athene, if u end your life, i will end mine, too.
Your life is so much better than most people's and you're being fucking ungrateful by killing yourself. Other people have so much shit going on in their lives yet they're not pussying out of it like you are. Although, if you're actually going to go through with this, you don't deserve life.
So by all means, go ahead.
If you kill yourself be sure to post some nude pictures.
hey, before you die, can you have sex with me?
Common, I don't believe that you want to suicide. You are to pretty to die, you have a lot reasons to live. Please, DO NOT do it!
god this is so fake
http://ipower.movielol.org/suicide.php
TITS OR GTFO
NOW!!!!
TITS OR GTFO!
Hey Tania, voilà maintenant quelques temps que je lis ton blog, à me demander si tu vas vraiment le faire ou non.. En fait non, je me le demande pas vraiment, je lis ton blog tout simplement, et j'apprends des choses, qui m'ont l'air trop vraies pour être inventées, des choses qui paraissent essentielles... Je trouve juste dommage de partir si vite, de juger la vie des maintenant... C'est comme juger un film à son début, ou ne pas trouver drole une blague qui n'est pas finie.. Il faut toujours aller jusqu'au bout pour pouvoir profiter pleinement de quelque chose.. Je sais pas si tu réponds au gens qui te laissent des commentaires, mais j'aimerais avoir ton opinion là dessus...
this is fake eh? it says on the side it is. o,O"..dont u ppl read?
i am a heron. i ahev a long neck and i pick fish out of the water w/ my beak. if you dont repost this comment on 10 other pages i will fly into your kitchen tonight and make a mess of your pots and pans
FAKE
I think it's amazing how many stupid, ignorant, gullible, unintelligent, naive, insensitive, unamaginative people walk around this planet... including both the people that made this blog and the people that believe it. It amazes me how we survive as a species.
for those who know this blog is fake:
u guys aren't helpin shit by commenting that this blog is fake.
I respect Tania's efforts. All u fuckin fags do is just jitter around cuz u aint got balls to stand up for your beliefs. U yourself kno that u got no balls. So stop fuckin around and If I were you, I might as well go fuck myself rather than leaving comments that hinder what Tania is trying to achieve: using media to solve many problems that cannot be solved 'easily'. once again I say to ignorant people: fuck you and you shod be ashamed of your own ignorance.
I myself knew this blog was "fake" but at least I tried to support her cause by acting as a person who tried to give advice to a person desperately in need.
again, to those that leave comments saying this blog sucks and its not helping: you are killing more people than how much Tania has saved so far. MURDERERS!!
Man, this is the most fake blog i've ever read. I'm pretty sure about the fact, Police know about it and they have warned your parents, sis or anyone in your live. So i think you wont die and continue your live like it must be.
all i can say, Die motherfucker die motherfucker, DIE
Its an HUGE LIE!!!
LOLZ
where is tania! no tania on this page! :P ah well I'll just skip the reading part
LOL
You pathetic people on here wanting to see her naked are fucking losers. Seriously...get a fucking life.
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