I love my sister.
I love her and my parents, and I love all my friends, and I've been up all night crying over it. If they are such good people, and I love them so, how can I ever do this to them? How can I commit suicide and leave my loving friends, parents, and baby sister to suffer for it?
I know I'm beginning to sound like a broken record, but it still bugs me.
I need something to hate them for, but something good, something I can really tell myself with that somehow this is all their fault and they deserve what's coming... I need a reason to hate them.
And I'll find one.
Even if it's the last thing I do.
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Obviously it is their fault that they love you so much that you can't bear leaving them.
You can hate them for that :-)
hate them because you HAVE to
Don't hate them. 90 days ago you didn't a shit about leaving your family behind, so whatever. I think you should continue on and kill yourself.
And when you do it, make sure it's live. I'd like to see it.
Although I think you're starting to pussy out. Man up, and start being emo and shit and talking about how people don't understand you, and all that attention seeking bullshit.
If you're going to kill yourself. Do it without advertising it to the public.
You're that hoe from the 40,000 blowjobs fake political campaign in Europe. This blog is lame, cruel to people who are actually struggling w/ suicidal thoughts or those who lost someone to it, and it's too bad it's a joke.
You should kill them as well, because you love them so much, stab their faces! Then kill yourself!
LOL, this is the bitch from the 40,000 blowjob campaign. What a fucking joker.
http://www.nee-antwerpen.be/index-eng.htm
Good fucking game.
You should just stop your AIDS meds and die over the next few years. 600 day Tania would be much more lucrative
The answer is simple. If you really care about your family and really love them, you wont give your self a reason to hate them. The reason is "if" you decide to kill yourself, you have to take in moderation that if your family gets the impression you hate them, they will live the rest of there lives thinking they are the ones to blame. Which lets face it, that simply (as far as we know) isnt true.
So be fair to them.
Suicide in my opinion is for quitters. People cant face what they do in life so they think of it as a easy way out.
I belive in karma, a good line from Gladiator the movie is "What we do in life, echoes for eternity". If that happens to be true... In the afterlife, you will be punished, if god exists, your automaticcly go to hell, if its re-incarnation, you'll come back as a labrat.
I dont say these things because I like you, or dislike you... I say them because they are my opinion.
I have no job, no life, no love, nothing... I question my existance on the very fundamentals you do. But I will never quit.
If you want more of my opinions my myspace link is in my name and below.
(that applies for anyone)
www.myspace.com/dem0nik
just get on with it why 90 days just do it now...BLUFF!!!!!
idiots that discriminate your past aren't worth your time.
take a look at this clip. you might've heard of it already. a 'final lecture' of a Carnegie-Mellon professor dying of cancer. this man wants to live, but he can't. so this is the message that he hopes that his children will hear one day. i hope that this inspires you.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ji5_MqicxSo&eurl=http://download.srv.cs.cmu.edu/~pausch/
i do hope that you make the right decision in your mind, the right decision being the one that leaves no mental conflicts.
good luck, and cheers.
The last thing these 13 year olds need to see on the internet is some halfway decent looking chick trying to set "standards" for internet suicide. You are a horrible example and this site should be forced to shut down. Its sad to think of how many actually disturbed children and teenagers out there will take anything you say into consideration, or how many people decided they now have the "courage" to kill themselves after seeing this.
You are a horrible person for putting this on the internet, furthermore you won't kill yourself, we all know you won't. Either this is some stupid stunt or some desperate cry for attention, but people who really intend on killing themselves don't set a date and post a blog everyday telling the whole world that its going to happen, not to mention, if it was real and this many people see the site, you'd be locked up in some insane asylum by now.
This site is a hoax and a shit example of things kids can accidentally come across on the internet. It should be shut down.
So I hear this is supposed to be some sort of protest against suicide in the Internet, right? It is pathetic though. I guess being a white European means that you really have nothing better to do, right? I mean.. if you were born in Africa you would be struggling for food now. But since you were born in Belgium, you can now dedicate your life to such important topics like suicide on the Internet. Way to go girl...
It is apparent that you will decide your course despite reader or family/friend input. What good will it do any of us to have 'net neutrality' if the best and brightest among us just pack it in? Can't know what you've been through, or be angry with you...just saddened. Concepts such as hate are a masquerade for fear.
I can't begin to speculate, much less prove the existence of an afterlife. I do not believe that an existence beyond this human/spiritual one would include anything so ridiculous as a pecking order or spiritual class system.
Just what am I trying to say? You can turn away from this destructive plan. You can save face by really and truly going inside for the answers and understand that all questions won't be answered at once. James Dean, Jimi Hendrix, River Phoenix and a list too long to include, left us with barely an introduction to their talents.
The world and (surely not me, but) someone you have not yet even met; needs you desperately.
It takes more courage to stay and discover (at least part if not all of) your true purpose. ET101 states that we volunteered for this mission. Those of us beyond age 2 may have forgotten that with all the education and indoctrination we have received since but that does not change the fact that we have a critical part of the mission to fulfill.
So please, please reconsider.
A friend
All I have to say is is you reconsider, and don't go through with it, I won't be disappointed. I would actually be happy. Like your blog yesterday about if you DON'T succeed, what would you do if that happens? Just think about your family. I mean, you probably hear this all the time but I just think you should reconsider.
Anyway, talk later maybe.
I see where this is going. Million bucks says that by 1 day left she will have changed her mind.
How can you be so inconsiderately selfish?
Tania..this is lawrence again.
seriously..we know you have announce that you are gonna suicide and i know what you say you will do it. i know you are a person that keep your words..i know its hard to pull back those things you said. PLEASE tania...you should just continue life and live on. Just live with athene..how would athene feel if you were gone? don't find reason to hate your parents...maybe you should one day find a suitable time and hug your mom or dad and tell all your problems to them. Tania...u do not need to commit suicide..although its your choice..i never go against it but please please please tania. No matter what you said and done..sometimes its just BEST to pull back those words you said...can't you see some fucking comments...LOOK!! they are challenging to suicide and think you are just dumb...well...DON'T CARE THEM. BE LIKE ATHENE...JUST SAY " I DUN GIVE A SHYT and i will carry on with my life". Tell those mother fuckers if you choose to live and not to die...tell them.."so? i wrote this blog for fun? so?" Tania..this world is filled witth bitterness but there is sweetness too. instead of finding a reason to hate ur parents..find a reason to find happiness. sorry my english is bad..and i hope what i said above do not offend you in anyway.. you are my friend..and i dun wanna lose a friend like that. here are some stars again for you * * * *.
Dear Tania,
That Catholic friend.
Today I want you to think about why you come to this world.
The reason is because the love of your parents, that is why they gave you birth as well as your sister.
This is a fact you cannot deny.
If you are thinking to separate yourself from them, that means your heart is missing them, you failed to blot them out of your mind, the more you attempt to separate your self from them, ther more you have affection on them.
Jesus Christ died for us, no matter we accept his salvation or not, He just unconditionally to give Himself out.
Dear Tania,
I am that Catholic friend and I still have message for you.
Yesterday I have recommended you a song, is it your CUP OF TEA?
Today I tell you to choose music to listen.
Rock music is a kind of music which is said similar to our heartbeat and easily attract the youth.
I also like a band called Beyond,
their song includes themes about parenthood, people living in the Third World.
However I have to tell you an experiment done by Canadian scientist:
They arranged difeernt rooms planted with flowers, and then use loudspeakers to play different kind of music, including rock, classical, chants...
After a period of time, the scientists found that the flowers grew towards classical music and chants, however, flowers in the room playing rock music all withered.
In fact, some brethren in the Church also carry out another experiment: They use some kind of method to listen rock music invertedly (by inversing them).
Can you guess what they hear?
They heard "Satan, we love you that you know". "Satan, we worship you". The song Hotel California is inverted and it said: "Satan, Satan, Satan ..."
Nowadays the youth listen a lot to these songs, the harmful effect is not obvious but implying and latent, that is why so many youth commit suicide...
I am telling you that as a know there is an evil sect in the word they especially compose these kind of music to ruin the youth, we must be careful.
You're gonna die anyways. We're all gonna die. You go first, punk!
Dear Tania,
The Catholic friend would like to tell you more.
The songs sung by Madonna is in the same case.
"Madonna" such name means 'My Lady', it is an Italian word for the people to call THE BLESSED VIRGIN MARY. However, her songs belong to this kind. She hesekf akso told her friends that she is really depressed when not in front of the public.
If you choose to listen to rock'n'roll, select carefully.
I myself listen to classical music, and I recommend J.S.Bach's music, his opus is vivid and energetic.
In spite of an audiophile to classical music, I disliked and refused Mozart's music because he is a person imbued with pride, so his music also shows so. Every time I listen to Mozart's music, I feel headache.
Dear Tania,
Catholic friend continues ...
So I had told you that ONe of meaning to live is to alleviate the other's suffering.
And I am telling you that I often notice unfortunate fate befell on someelse, and then I will try my best to hinder it further happens, obstruct it occuring on someone else, or, if it is taking place, I endeavour to mitigate it.
So Tania, go on living in this world and follow my example, that is the example given by Jesys ti me. So, by our examples, we can become light of the wor;d.
See you tomorrow and above all,
FRIENDSHIP FOREVER.
take a look at her cheap retouched pic, the style reminds me of all those cheesy xxx sites on the web. i'm pretty sure many of you stupid us-americans (and of course, others too) will fall for this cheap stuff, but anyone who learnt to use his brains will recon this is just made up by someone to gain attention and/or make some money. it just is too made up, like one of those pop corn movies, nothing else - a bit pseudo-intellectual stuff here, some emotional argy-barky there. as some other guy already wrote: it's a shame people start using the www as medium for that kind of stuff, which has nothing to do with real suicide, depressions and so on, but perfectly fits into to narrow thinking frame of some kids who are actually thinking about comitting suicide just because they haven't learnt to live yet.
take a look at her cheaply retouched pic, the style reminds me of all those cheesy xxx sites on the web. i'm pretty sure many of you stupid us-americans (and of course, others too) will fall for this cheap stuff, but anyone who learnt to use his brains will recon this is just made up by someone to gain attention and/or make some money. it just is too made up, like one of those pop corn movies, nothing else - a bit pseudo-intellectual stuff here, some emotional argy-barky there. as some other guy already wrote: it's a shame people start using the www as medium for that kind of stuff, which has nothing to do with real suicide, depressions and so on, but perfectly fits into to narrow thinking frame of some kids who are actually thinking about comitting suicide just because they haven't learnt to live yet.
Guys, it says ON THE SITE that it is an anti-suicide awareness campaign. She isn't going to kill herself, she's just exaggerating certain aspects of "suicide blogs" that appear to be a trend lately.
It should be stated more clearly on the site however, since even I had trouble finding the disclaimer (click "Suicide isn't sexy" under her bio).
If your still wondering how you should kill yourself, you should have a massive sex orgy, get really really high on drugs, and overdose just after you finish
are u fucking out of your mind bitcheZZZZZZZ .This bitch never going to kill her self , its a fucking HIT THE PAGE deal shit idiots
Heh, Your looking for a reason to hate the people you love. You love them for a reason, and they love you for one. Don't throw it away and leave every one in pain. You have no reason to leave this world, you have everything, but yet you still want to die. it makes no sense.
Why die now? Ultimately we will all be there, so quit thinking you are special.
It's unavoidable, do something crazy with your life if death is all thats on your mind.
There is nothing unique about your death. EVERYONE dies but not everyone truly lives. Make living the challange instead, to commit suicide is just displaying weakness.
Why do you post some pics of you naked? huh you wont feel embarased as long as you going to blow your empty head...come on show us some nice tits!!
You're ridiculous. I don't think you're going to do it; I'm pretty sure you just want attention. I mean, if you were SO lost in despair, 90 days would seem like an eternity... what the fuck can you POSSIBLY have making you so suicidal anyway? No one understands you? Boo-fuckin-whoo.
My 2 month old daughter DIED in January.
And you know what? I've been thisclose to doing the deed on more than one quiet night when my arms felt dead and empty. But you know what? If I would have, I sure wouldn't have made a whole damn site about it. I would have just driven off a bridge and called it a life.
If you want people to tell you how awesome and beautiful you are, and that you shouldn't kill yourself, you're not going to get that from me... if you really are serious, which I doubt, go ahead and do the damn thing. The world doesn't need damn stupid drama queens on it whining about suicide because "no one understands them".
Darwin's Law. Survival of the fittest. May the weak perish. You dumb shit.
I accidently posted this in the wrong place a minute ago. Anyway, if this is what you really want to do, then all you have to do is find a way to make yourself think of them as noobs. We all know how much Athene (Chiren), Furious, Abraham, and yourself hate noobs. :)
I think this is an awful blog. Why be public? If it is true why not keep it to yourself so your not bringing other vunerable people down with you.
Ya heard of the suicide 'pacts' in Wales? You wanna cause more deaths and people looking to be 'clever'?
I hate this sort of attention seeking thing.
How did your blowjob idea go?
Surely you mean if it is the SECOND last thing you do?
Don't hate them. Instead get them to hate you, that way they will be happy when you are dead. Having people hate you might be uncomfortable but you won't have a problem with only 18 days left. Do something so horrible to them in the next couple of days that will overshadow your own suicide.
...You are such a fraud. Either that or a really stupid bitch.
Like im against you doing it.. i think its wrong, dont hurt people if you dont have too, im 14 and from england, i know i dont know you at all, but if you do this it will also bother me :(, seriously please dont do it im like begging you :'(
As long as I get to sex your dead body I don't care. :)
LOL u guys are all noobs . FUCKING EH this so called 'bitch' is hot yeah but fuck its an act. to gain view and get people to listen. Its a good way to promote. But all you Fucking creeps go suck some major cock with gonorrhea and a sprinkle of herpes. Enjoy.
wtf ppl i dont get why anyone would want to kill themselves and your so pretty you shouldnt just give up on life. what happens after you die ehh? i had a kid commit suicide on valentines day 07, he was a friend but not a close friend i just saw him around and i seriously cried alittle because i knew i would never see him again. i think he did it coz he was lonely... funny thing we talked a couple days before and he said its good thing im not suicidal anymore like freshman year i like life... which was what really confused me... someday you will meet someone worth living for. is that not enough?
~Random guy that came across this website
just found a vid on youtube where this blog was advertised. Vid. is about how internet can make you famous, bunch of nonsense for 20 mins, you and your "crew" how you called them are talking about positiv thinking , great ideas and so on..So what's the deal you are going to show how any crap anyone put on net will make you famous? Proving how "right" you guys are? Well newsflesh we all know that, we all know that internet can make you famous, but that fame doesnt last long, specially it won't in your case ( 18 days left and only 41 comment?), I can tell you right away you aren't next big thing, I never heard about you, I don't care and won't when this 90 days are over ( and ofc you will be still alive and well, with some pathetic story how internet is bad or good, or how can it change ones life...). I just hope it won't change life of some family when some 15 year old kid kill himself seeing your blogg, I am much older and it's seem like a lots of bs for me, I hope teenagers will think the same, but since you named all your vids on youtube with sex this and that I am sure some of them will get here, but be awear you can be responsable if some underage kid kill himself cos of you ( and I mean by law).
and this is the way to make anti suicide blogs? I had to look hard to find that msg about how this is anti "suicide culture" campaign. If you guys think you are any better than that girl Jane you are talking about you are living a lie, but I guess you all know that..This is just one more way to promote yourselfs? If you want to do so really make that msg more visiable if nothing else..
you fucking attention whore obviously you're not going to kill yourself. you gave yourself 90 days, wtf is that and then now you're transitioning into a doubting state. you dont plan on killing yourself, you never did.
its retarded how you seem to actually be trying to find a reason to hate them, a reason to kill yourself. you're looking for false justification.
the really stupid thing is that you KNOW you're finding a FAKE reason to hate them just to JUSTIFY that you CAN kill urself.
stop being a total attention whore. you're not going to do it.
"wow im gonna kill myself, oh but i love my family!!! everyone i need to find a reason omg so intense!!"
you're going to change the view on suicidal people? wtf. you dont give a shit about that. you just want attention.
- shoozer
LOL "internet suicide culture"? wtf are u talking about.
end your life in style? attention whore. you're not fucking stylish.
what trend of internet suicides? you started it? nice self-proclaimed declaration.
and you think you're the one who caused it but you take no responsibility? you stupid bitch, you dont choose whether you're responsible or not. you ARE responsible for this imaginary trend of internet suicides. you dont take responsibility...my ass.
you're pathetic, grow the fuck up
Wether this is a joke or not doesn't matter to me. I think the idea is one of the coolest i have seen on the internet in a long long time. Just found the site tonight going to read the whole thing (I have 18 days left to get it done haha). Anyway, since I haven't read it all yet, I have a question why 90 days? Just seems cruel to know the day you are going to die before hand. Even if it under your control, seems to me if you didn't do it immediately it would be a lot harder to do as every day went by. It would take more courage then I have to do this.
(PS If this started out as a joke, or if while doing this you changed your mind don't let anyone else force you into doing this just because you said you would)
whatever they have done they still love you like you love them, for you to kill yourself is being unrespectful to the mutual love and somewhat selfish for you to be the one to end it
The purpose of 90 Day Tania is to raise awareness of suicide.
I don't really understand how this will stop people from committing suicide, but it's a strange way of doing it. How do you know you aren't inspiring mentally unstable people to kill themselves?
A word of advice to the people is to ask yourself if what you are reading on the Internet is real. Don't be so gullible!
you know i have reset the time,i cant wait to taste you.i can post your place if you like.
Suicide is no victory. It leaves your enemies one less person to face. Be bloody minded and fuck up your enemies by not giving them the satisfaction. Would you really desire to hand the machine it's victory without a contest? Beat it and kick its arse.
i really don't know what youre thinking!?
if you have friends and people around you that really loves you, why should you kill yourself ? it seems to me that its just something you do or say to get everyones attention, or something. you should get help. or just kill yourself. i dont care. attentionhore!
You can hate them for standing idly by while your father touched you as he told you he loved you?
And all the while slowly easing his way into you. :)
They could've stopped it, but they didn't, becuase they didn't want to deal with him, selfish bitches. How could they do that to you?!?
Also.
Give me your number.
So I can text you with dirty things.
Me too ^_^
You dont. deserve to die.
Where is that guye who used to make videos of 'Leave Britney alooooonnee'' rofl
Tania, don't be stupid just enjoy life whatever its like :)
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