Okay, so now I'm officially depressed. Mission accomplished there.
The easy part's over, now on to the more advanced stage: not caring about the people around me. This is actually a lot trickier than I thought it would be. I spent some more time with my little sis today, and I almost had tears in my eyes when I thought about what my departing would do to her as I watched her play with her dolls. And not only her, but my friends and parents as well.
Doing what I intend to do after this blog is something that will leave them all devastated and scarred for the rest of their lives, it's a crime towards others more than anything, it's assault, on a mental and deep emotional level. So it's going to be quite hard to get over that, to not feel like a selfish fool.
But I guess I'll just have to manage it.
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Did I mention how much I love you?
This is getting a bit boring, I liked the blog, but its kinda repetitive and boring now.
Can you please kill yourself already and if there is a way tape it and post it online. K thx
Ive had enough of this Bull Shit, if you dont blow your brains out, ill make sure you die you dumb bitch.
You better kill yourself and not be joking, cause if I see you someday ill make sure you have a nice, sweet death.
Peace
:/ damn. i spend 1 hour reading evrything. its very sad :(
fuck you other guys. this is serius shit. dont just say go die kkthxbai.
THIS IS FAKE, SHE ONLY WANT HITS ON ATHENE SITE, AND FROM THERE IPOWER SITE..
YOU COMPLAIN ABOUT HOW TV CROSS THE LINE TO GET THEIR MESSAGE OUT, YOU N00BS CROSSED THE LINE NOW WITH THIS..
THX BYE RIP
For real Tania, i hope someone will kill you..
7th! lolz
GO TO THE MAIN PAGE AND CLICK ON THE RIGHT WHERE IT SAYS: Suicide isn't sexy!!!! READ IT! I appreciate what you are trying to do here but I think you are going about it in a very very wrong way. I don't think this is helping anyone. You and your friends are warped. This isn't funny. Suicide is SERIOUS! It's not a game or an advertising campaign to get viewers to your F#$king YouTube Channel! We are talking about people that need help. If you want to help spread the word about being ANTI SUICIDE THIS ISN'T THE WAY TO DO IT! Your post from now on should be about seeking help. Noticing that your thoughts are not right. Maybe even about PRAYING! YES I SAID IT~ There is a GOD! He IS REAL~ And SAVED ME FROM TAKING MY LIFE! Start Trying to FIX the Problem and not perpetuate it! It Sick! It in Poor Taste! It's NOT HELPING!!!!!!
Hi Lady,
This is my last comment until you remove (just change the topic) of Day 29 post.
Last Suicide Song:
- Joy Division:
SHE'S LOST CONTROL
NoReplyBox
I know this is fake, but if for whatever reason you do decide to kill yourself, please kill as many niggers as possible before you go. Just think, the world would be a better place without you and a bunch of black people. plus, people would remember you.
K bye bye bitch girl who is a gay guy.
Tania in your next blog you mind telling us why you plan to kill yourself? Seem like your just doing this just because you can.
CAN I HAS FCUK W/ U BE4 U DIES ? LOOOL THX
"Hi Lady" guy, you are going to stop making posts because of her sleep depravation blog? Dude. You're starting to lose focus because the whole idea is to "raise awareness" about things that can lead a person to become depressed and/or suicidal...in this case, sleep depravation. What gives? You are starting to sound like one of those cry babies who "just don't get it" so c'mon...I know YOU get it. Tania has a very unclear message to many, but I sure thought, out of all the perplexed and annoyed people, you'd be the last one to let something that Tania posts ruffle your feathers like that.
Hi there Tania. I feel some what obliged to say somthing, I am not entirely sure if this is real or not. I have seen pretty much all of Athene's movies and read deep into the Ipower. I hope this is just iterative thinking or a public stunt to express internet manipulation or even proper gander. I don't know you as well as i feel should, so this might not count for anything, But when i was down and out my mum helped me through tough times with a little saying of hers "It's up to you to live you life, not to just exist."
Hope this doesn't result in what it is speculating, you have so much to offer the world. I'd love to give you an email address if you wished to talk sometime, but i'm afraid of getting spammed :(.
Your a beautiful person, i hope you realize that before 27 days time.
Don't kill yourself, because dying is not what you want. You want to pass through ruff time, and you don't know how.
Because, you know that things will go better in a few times. Maybe it seems far away, but with help you will be there very fast. There's people to help you, you should not be afraid to ask for help.
I'm sure it is hard what you're living right now, but don't worry things will change for the best.
take care,
Tania! Quit being just the pretty face (etc.) to get more views for the videos. You should participate in the ipower-related discussions.
Also don't kill yourself....
I never noticed the hidden bit before, I knew there was something about the page. I knew there was a real, and good reason for you to post this. You are a genius.
Of all the people i've ever heard of online, you, and the ipower crew are the most intelligent. You know how to reach people who don't want to listen to everything the normal way.
You're creatively making a serious and valid point. I honestly love what you're doing. Whatever you do, don't stop.
dudes that are asking why she's doing this uh read the damn blod its right there XD. uh i dont think she's gunnu do it i mean just looks like something for attention. realy in 27 days we're probably just gunnu see her again in Athene's vids.
Regardless of the "suicide isn't sexy" post, Im still gonna check this blog after 27 days :P
LOLERCOPTER!
the girl in the vids can't even speak english. This homofag man writing this blog is just trying to attract international attention as all of his vids do.
damnit.
i read the whole blog then recently looked at the Suicide Isn't Sexy link. and i'm very disappointed.
plz kill yourself anyway
a lot of people have been an anticipating this
such as myself
:(
lol.....luv your humour
hey i got a really sad movie for you its call Nobody knows its Japanese now as for killing yourself I got a great quote "He couldn't believe how easy it was, he put the gun into his face, bang. So much blood for such a tiny little hole. Problems have solutions." - Nine Inch Nails, The Downward Spiral
I can see you're really starting to drive everybody away. Gotta say, I'm pretty amazed at how 'getting into' this suicidal depression thing actually works. It's really true: Suicide blogging means SERIOUS BUSINESS. Especially when you lose a loyal participant such as Hi Lady...
I only want for you to think of one thing, which is...just to consider all potential losses before you go. Think of your life as being useful for just one purpose. You don't know what that is or when you will find out. It may only be for the simple act of being there with your sister, swimming together on a nice hot day, perhaps like the one you will end your life on. But since you had to take away your life, fatefully, and without her love in mind, she drowns without your help...
i dont no if this is real or not
but i also feel obliged to say something.
if this is for research tv etc.
then the results are not going to
assist in sucide prevention but
only give ideas to people who
believe that sucide is the only way out.
this blog has obviously affected many people and the only possible outcome would be to have negative effects on the people who have taken the time out to read.
having saved this blog as my 'favourites' i partially feel guilty as i feel as i am supporting this. however i am interested in what the outcome may be.
if this is real, then what id really like to no are what the reasons
that you want to die?
whats so bad about ur life that cant be changed?
have u ever thought about traveling? why not run away?
if u want escape this would be great whilst also giving you a chance to come back.
life is all about choice. while
people may sometimes force choice onto u there is always help available.
why have u given urslef this amount of days?
and if ur so ready to commit sucide then why is it that you have to get urslef into a depressive mood?
i would be great if u answer these questions. i am sure that i will countine to read until the now 27 days are up.
u only get one chance at life.
and its what u make of it.
40.001 Admirer,
I am getting sleepy ;)
sorry but, publicity stunts are getting old and if u realy were thinking of suicide u woulda just done it... sorry but its not fooling any1 realy. kinda sucks ur pretty hot
I am a soldier stationed in Iraq, a few of us were surfing youtube, and stumbled upon Athene. Those videos got us laughing. It was well needed, because we had lost two of our own three days ago. We were ambushed ten miles out of Baghdad on a routine patrol. It was seven of us against thirty. We were given four days RNR, when we stumbled upon these movies. For some reason i clicked on your Blog icon. We ended up reading the entire thing. With the death of our friends, your subject has captivated us. The morale has been pretty low since the fight, and a few of my close squadmates were debating suicide and your cite. I too have contemplated this subject recently. It would be so easy just to walk out in direct fire...... I have been thinking about that for a few months. I am just so tired and worn down. The things i have seen haunt my dreams at night, along with the faces of the men i have seen cut down in the fighting. These young men have barely started their lives, and are already in metal coffins planted in the earth. They swore to protect the people and the freedoms of those people back home. I have seen death many times in my profession. Maybe that is why i have tose thoughts of sucide. When you are around it constantly it starts to affect your mind.
My squad and i are wondering what are the reasons for you committing suicide. We want to know the facts of your reasoning. Dont give us any cliche answears either, like your Blog states about reasons for living, we want real reasons for your actions. Suicide is such a taboo in society these days that the mentioning of the word strikes interest in peoples mind's and souls. This subject is one not touched by intellectuals and is socially shunned in society. My squademates and I also want to know whats the point to fight a war for the freedoms of others when some will just end their lives anyway. Their reasoning is that why should they fight and die for peoples lives if these people are just going to kill themselves. These young boys are trading lives they do not want to give up just so people like you can take your own. The reasoning is flawed. With the world harder and harder to survive in many of us "poor farm boys" can't afford to go to school or get a good job without the military's help. Why should we bleed and die for those who dont want to live. We lost a man three months ago to a suicide, we found him in a Humvee with a hole in his head. He too left a message said he couldnt stomach it anymore. Never mentioned it in the paper though, damn censorship. Us boys are all tired and hurting inside, make us understand why you are doing this and maybe we wont feel like we are dying for no damn reason. Whether this Blog is true or not we are going to keep checking it out of curiosity. If this is not true, its not that funny of a joke, considering what i have shared with you. If it is real, it would be greatly appreciated if you could give us a response before your 27 days are up.
do what the soldier says. thats pretty f'd up of you
http://ipower.movielol.org/suicide.php
perhaps everyone should read the link above...
I'm 100% this blogg is fake
Good for me, eh?
can't you kill your self now ??
stop this 90 days shit and do it like a real bitch
Kill your self?Are you dumb?The life is beautifull , you can have everything, get a work make familly.There is much people who lost everything and they trying to live.
Think about what you do, no one cares if you die only the people who knows,loves you.
I suggest you to think about your life and don't do what..
I'm sorry for spelling.I'm not english.
Thanks, I've had so much fun laughing at all the comments and the blog. You really made my day.
First of all suicide is a big deal, it's quite obvious your not going to do it. But seriously, to help out athene videos maybe you actully killing yourself in one would be entertaining.
Come on aty leats htink about it, he would get some hugh hits on it.
Apophis, you are right, but, just read the entire blog, there's no advices! Jut that advice :-(
Imagine now a really depressed folk which come here and read that and think, ok, why not? Not sleep, a great advice... He doesn't know nothing about iPower or Tania Derveaux and he doesn't care, but he finds himself in a very very bad situation in a few days.
Please, read some of the symptoms of a non sleep period.
I think is not a kidding issue.
The protest of one, maybe, will not change this blog idea or even a post, but I will not continue cheering up a destructive and non constructive iniciative.
It's just my point of view. Thanks anyway for your words.
NoReplyBox
Have your boyfriend and his posse kill themselves too... they're so fucking gay!
Finnaly one of your blogs is doing what all of this is about..
Anti-suicide
Good job
Foetus
ohh and to the guy who said athene was gay.
Fuck you, you're just jealoes of his awesome skillzorz.
Foetus
Tania, I will not make any pretentious claims and assume that you have had a terrible upbringing which has led you to believe that suicide is the best answer.
But too often is that the case in people who contemplate suicide. Either they were raised in oppression, were raped as a child, maybe they lost dear people in their life... a whole list of other things.
Tania, I wish I could express the feelings in my heart and share it with you, and I also wish that you could share your feelings and pain with me.
Please, reconsider. I beg you.
Foetus,
What "skillzorz" does Athene have? He's just a scrawny rat living in a cubby whole somewhere. And what the fuck is a skillzorz? Nice word douche bag!
Hey Foetus
First off... this is lame, Tania is not going to kill herself. She just wants attention.
Two... if Athene was so fucking great, Tania, his girlfriend, would be happy and not suicidal.
Therefore, obviously, Athene isn't much of a man. He is probably too busy getting plugged by all the dudes he has in his apartment.
-J
Tania, I will not make any pretentious claims and assume that you have had a terrible upbringing which has led you to believe that suicide is the best answer.
But too often is that the case in people who contemplate suicide. Either they were raised in oppression, were raped as a child, maybe they lost dear people in their life... a whole list of other things.
Tania, I wish I could express the feelings in my heart and share it with you, and I also wish that you could share your feelings and pain with me.
Please, reconsider. I beg you.
Someone commented in an earlier post: "why would you commit suicide if you're not depressed, dumbass" or something along those lines.
Well, to that person, or others who feel the same? Screw you.
I'm not especially depressed, and I'm still thinking of suicde. I'm just sick of life, it's too boring. There's no POINT to living. I believe death is cooler!! Being a ghost, or whatever happens "after".
So don't go saying you "need to be depressed to kill youself", because that's bull. :)
You are like an angel in the sky and i am greatful to the Heavens to have seen You in my eyes!
Dear Tania,
I will pray to prevent you from suicide; in case you did so, I will pray so that you can go to Purgatory, instead of hell.
But I tell you, soon after your last breath, you will see once again your whole life; knowing the meaning ehy you come to this world,and how many grace God has bestowed on you and you lose the rest because your suicide decision.
need some nudepics of you for fapping purposes, nauw!
fuckin' fake blog.
hey.. since ur not dead.. will u still record when u kill yourself and post it on your blog or have someone post it since youll be dead?
Wow, tbh you fucks that are saying this is only a publicity stunt, go to hell. Even if that were the case, it's still getting an important message out. This particular blog being fictional does not mean there aren't many others out there that are serious about doing what she's talking about. The media, whether intentional or not, has glorified suicide. And now with this 'culture' popping up, it's only going to be worse. Tania, keep up the good work. Get that message out there, make a difference, unlike these shit bags that are commenting on how stupid you are. And one more thing, I'm not scared to put my name on here, you fucking pussies.
Ignorant and stubborn are the words that come into my head as i read your profile and blog posts. You are foolish to end your life over such small, weak, and minuscule reasons. I don't believe in god or the existence of a hell; when you die you will be just that, dead. Compare yourself to the dead body of a rat caught in a mouse trap, lifeless, pointless, and with no significance. I don't know you so i can't say i care for you either. live or die, a vast quantity of organic human beings continue down or go down one of the two paths every second as time moves forward. It is your choice to remain living or kill yourself, i promote neither. I truly don't care whether the heart you hold in your chest beats or not. If you choose to kill yourself find a better reason to, impress me. think hard about what you are doing and why because your choice to end your life is not unique or original at all. are you trying to be different in killing yourself because i find it cliché in every way. your trying to die in style, visual appearance is hardly style. You don't deserve death and you shouldn't be rewarded with it. your forcing a gift upon yourself that you have not yet earned. Does this really matter? after death surly none of this will to you. I find my existence weak and pointless. I see the same dullness in life as i filter poetic meanings through my mental. this whole existence will be nothing someday. life on this earth is surrounded by suffering and pain. i do not see any significance in existence on earth nor the vast universe. if gods exist, i do not see significance in their existence either. nothing matters. I do know i have emotions and a small history i carry with me in a gargantuan history of an infinite time line of a universe and whatever is bigger. i enjoy this life i have because i only get to experience it once. I exist and the small percentage of that happening as a high quantity of semen ejaculated in some female human is extremely small. existence for us living grown organisms is a blessing. i live because i deserved it and stole it from some other sole sperm who could have formed its own human body different visually from any others. i can't say you deserve your life though if you plan to take it from yourself. if you plan to take your own life then it is not yours. you don't deserve life nor death, you deserve nothing. and as i end this comment i say you are nothing though you have the potential to be. find a better reason for death and make your life yours or live and do something with yourself. your such a fucking fool to think your life sucks. i probably have endured more heartache and experienced more emptiness and complex thought than you ever have or ever will. we all have our individual opinion. there is no such thing as a right answer when your dealing with emotions and perspective. the only right answer over everything is the existence of whats already here, its mere existence is proof of that. goodbye.
Hi Tania my name is Tatiana and I am form Brazil, and I have 25 years old. Sorry for my bad english. I believe that everything has propose, I know that I found this blog around the whole internet for a reason, for to say to you that God has a propose to your life, He creates you. He makes you inside your mother, and He gave you family, a home, friends, healthy, arms, legs, eyes, because He loves you. He creates you to have a relationship with Him, to be your father and friend. I had already felt what are you feeling, it seems that there is something missing inside you. This empty just can be filled with God; money, friends, familiy it is not enough to make us happy. Think better about kill yourself. Jesus came to the earth and he dies for you, to forgive you, to take all your faults off, and give you happinness.
stupid bitch
im not scared to put my name out either its jake and shes still a stupid bitch
I'm sorry to say this, but if you were ugly nobody would care. At all. More power to you bitch. It's easy to kill oneself, maybe try living
GO TO THE MAIN PAGE AND CLICK ON THE RIGHT WHERE IT SAYS: Suicide isn't sexy!!!! READ IT! I appreciate what you are trying to do here but I think you are going about it in a very very wrong way. I don't think this is helping anyone. You and your friends are warped. This isn't funny. Suicide is SERIOUS! It's not a game or an advertising campaign to get viewers to your F#$king YouTube Channel! We are talking about people that need help. If you want to help spread the word about being ANTI SUICIDE THIS ISN'T THE WAY TO DO IT! Your post from now on should be about seeking help. Noticing that your thoughts are not right. Maybe even about PRAYING! YES I SAID IT~ There is a GOD! He IS REAL~ And SAVED ME FROM TAKING MY LIFE! Start Trying to FIX the Problem and not perpetuate it! It Sick! It in Poor Taste! It's NOT HELPING!!!!!!
GO TO THE MAIN PAGE AND CLICK ON THE RIGHT WHERE IT SAYS: Suicide isn't sexy!!!! READ IT! I appreciate what you are trying to do here but I think you are going about it in a very very wrong way. I don't think this is helping anyone. You and your friends are warped. This isn't funny. Suicide is SERIOUS! It's not a game or an advertising campaign to get viewers to your F#$king YouTube Channel! We are talking about people that need help. If you want to help spread the word about being ANTI SUICIDE THIS ISN'T THE WAY TO DO IT! Your post from now on should be about seeking help. Noticing that your thoughts are not right. Maybe even about PRAYING! YES I SAID IT~ There is a GOD! He IS REAL~ And SAVED ME FROM TAKING MY LIFE! Start Trying to FIX the Problem and not perpetuate it! It Sick! It in Poor Taste! It's NOT HELPING!!!!!!
GO TO THE MAIN PAGE AND CLICK ON THE RIGHT WHERE IT SAYS: Suicide isn't sexy!!!! READ IT! I appreciate what you are trying to do here but I think you are going about it in a very very wrong way. I don't think this is helping anyone. You and your friends are warped. This isn't funny. Suicide is SERIOUS! It's not a game or an advertising campaign to get viewers to your F#$king YouTube Channel! We are talking about people that need help. If you want to help spread the word about being ANTI SUICIDE THIS ISN'T THE WAY TO DO IT! Your post from now on should be about seeking help. Noticing that your thoughts are not right. Maybe even about PRAYING! YES I SAID IT~ There is a GOD! He IS REAL~ And SAVED ME FROM TAKING MY LIFE! Start Trying to FIX the Problem and not perpetuate it! It Sick! It in Poor Taste! It's NOT HELPING!!!!!!
GO TO THE MAIN PAGE AND CLICK ON THE RIGHT WHERE IT SAYS: Suicide isn't sexy!!!! READ IT! I appreciate what you are trying to do here but I think you are going about it in a very very wrong way. I don't think this is helping anyone. You and your friends are warped. This isn't funny. Suicide is SERIOUS! It's not a game or an advertising campaign to get viewers to your F#$king YouTube Channel! We are talking about people that need help. If you want to help spread the word about being ANTI SUICIDE THIS ISN'T THE WAY TO DO IT! Your post from now on should be about seeking help. Noticing that your thoughts are not right. Maybe even about PRAYING! YES I SAID IT~ There is a GOD! He IS REAL~ And SAVED ME FROM TAKING MY LIFE! Start Trying to FIX the Problem and not perpetuate it! It Sick! It in Poor Taste! It's NOT HELPING!!!!!!
she isnt gona kill herself nubs this is all an act to actually stop teen suicide and suicide blogs on the interbutts look up athene on youtube and it even says on the ipower site that she isnt gona kill herself...ur still hawt
HAIL ATHENE
Too much lack of understanding; I understand this. People want to shut down the blog because of an overall lack of understanding in people in general. Understandably, I can see how it all gets confusing...
NoReplyBox!!
Ahhhhh, don't you worry bout a thang! You will come around to see the beauty and the "interconnectivity" of the blog once again, in due time. I have a good feeling that if she's not sleeping, those effects will become evident in her writings...do pay close attention, lol. I've just sent that out on a wavelength...
(no email)
The more i read of your blogs the more i start to hate you, you can never seem to decide what you are, sad or happy, and just come off as an attention whore only one big network has noticed you? horrible! well i guess iPower won't get as much notice eh? Fuck you. It's kind of sick how you and your dumbfuck iPower crew are treating suicide as such a joke, it isn't. You probably wouldn't even do it. And by the way, your a nobody, Athene's bitch kills herself big fucking deal. No one cares. it's not helping or hurting anyone so just fucking stop making a mockery of suicide if you're not gonna get anywhere with it. Dumb whore.
I wish she would come on an interview and address this matter of publicly doing a suicide, course, the footage couldn't be released until after DAY 0 because of her not wanting family to find out and such. I was a sure letdown on last iPower clip, not to hear her once mention it, not even a nod or anything! NADA ZIPPITY ZILCH. All in all, a diffrent character I guess, but in the end it will all come out in the warsh when she gives us the nipples. I've NOT been killing myself for hopes to that come true.
dont
voice
This is fake
Tania, I am sorry you do not get any love. I am sorry those guys you hang out with don't want to fuck you. I am sorry that I am not there to give you what you need. Warm sweet love that only a proud white man can give to a beautiful pure Aryan woman like you. Love that spouts inside your Aryan vagina, flows freely out of the same. Love that grows and fills your belly with life, radiance and purpose.
Before you kill yourself, come see me. I will show you life is worth living. Your body is a pure temple of love and affection. You are made perfect to give life. Your lips, your big jugs, your pretty face, your wet Aryan vagina.
My e-mail is ryn4hnnty@yahoo.com. Let's get together. I will give you all the joy you need so that you will live to give life. Breed, be fruitful and multiply.
I'll depress you.
Well, your tongue.
With my huge penis.
Me too ^_^
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