Friday, April 4, 2008

32 days left...

Yes, I know, that was a cruel April fool's prank, now get over it.

Seriously why are you all mailing me about it saying how I shouldn't do things like that? It's just a bit of fun. There is nothing immoral about a prank as long as it turns out to be just that. Like on April fool's day, since I wasn't writing a blog and I could spend that time thinking up something else, I thought up and pulled a prank on my little sister. ^^

What I did was go in to her room while she was out with my grandparents (they still go on easter egg hunts with her) and play dead on her bed. So when she came home and entered her room, I was lying face-down on her bed, completely motionless (and on that note, holding your breath for that long is hard).

So she giggled and thought I was playing, and tried to wake me up, but when I didn't move even after fifteen seconds she started yelling at me that it wasn't funny (which of course it was) and after another 10 seconds or so she started crying.

I just jumped up and startled her then, since I couldn't hold my breath any longer. You should've seen the look on her face. =p

Well, at least now I know how she'll react to the real thing.

34 comments:

Anonymous said...

you're a fucking bitch to that to your little sister, even more so that this whole this is fucking fake...i'm gonna go out on a SMALL limb and say this anti-suicide site isn't working and/or smart..if anything i'm sure your just feeding more people into it...You'd think that some one that has previously set their self up for being known would find a better way to combat this issue... i hope that you will eventual realize what this is doing, and that you find a better way to help, instead of "mocking" it.....

Anonymous said...

ehh anyone in the right mind woulda put their head up agasint your chest to hear for your heart beat.

Anubis said...

If hell exists, I hope you get the most sadistic punishment ever. Even worse than Hitler's.

Anonymous said...

Well this is quite obvious, isn't it?
You write: "I honestly do not care about other people's feelings or opinions on this matter"
So why do you write a blog about it? Why do you post people's reactions on your blog and answer them? Because you DO want to hear people's feelings and opinions on the matter and you DO care because of one simple reason. You want attention. An congratulations girl, you're getting it! That is what you want and what this is all about.
A T T E N T I O N.

And taking a look at all your big problems and why your life sucks makes me wonder... "I had one of those days on which everything seems to work against you. It rained, my internet access got cut off for hours, I broke a nail, ran out of coffee and missed my bus (all in one day), so forgive me for wanting to curl up in a corner and sob, I think I have good reason to."
Oh you poor poor thing.. Now you can surely kill yourself with a clean consciousness.
No you don't have good reason to curl up in a corner and sob. We all have shitty days every once in a while, but we deal with it. If those are your big problems that make you think life is somehow against you in every thinkable way (which it isn't) it's time to grow up and face reality. If you think that's bad you have never faced anything hard in your entire life

When your 90 days are over and the 91:st day begins you will still be alive. You will be alive on the 92:nd day as well, but you wont update your blog since that would prove that this is all bullshit.

My conclusions are that:
#1: You want attention (otherwise you wouldn't be doing all this)
#2: You won't kill yourself.
#3: You're faking all of this because of #1

Of course I realize that this is the kind of reaction you want the most because it "proves" how mean people are to you. And better yet, you can show this to your jolly old im-cutting-my-wrists-to-kill-
myself-but-not-deep-enough-to-
actually-kill-myself friends and you can all have a razor party. Maybe you can drink something that makes you sick, but doesn't kill you. And you can cut yourselves, but not deep enough to die? Yeehaaa! Great party!

What you are doing is sick. There are real people with real problems out there and you are spitting in their faces by doing this.

Idiot.

Anonymous said...

Lmao that's funny as hell :P tried it before on my brother but he just slapped me in the face and my reaction gave it away =/

Anonymous said...

"Well this is quite obvious, isn't it?
You write: "I honestly do not care about other people's feelings or opinions on this matter"
So why do you write a blog about it? Why do you post people's reactions on your blog and answer them? Because you DO want to hear people's feelings and opinions on the matter and you DO care because of one simple reason. You want attention. An congratulations girl, you're getting it! That is what you want and what this is all about.
A T T E N T I O N."

Wall of text crits you for 10920.
You are dead.

Anonymous said...

"Well this is quite obvious, isn't it?
You write: "I honestly do not care about other people's feelings or opinions on this matter"
So why do you write a blog about it? Why do you post people's reactions on your blog and answer them? Because you DO want to hear people's feelings and opinions on the matter and you DO care because of one simple reason. You want attention. An congratulations girl, you're getting it! That is what you want and what this is all about.
A T T E N T I O N."

"you're a fucking bitch to that to your little sister"

You people do know that the blog is fictional, right? :-)

Anonymous said...

YOU ARE AN ODIOT!! EVEN IF YOU THINK THIS IS ALL JUST A JOKE, YOU ARE DISTURBING OTHER MINDS WITH YOUR FOOLISH JOKE. LIFE IS ONLY ONCE AND THERE IS NO AFTERLIFE AND GOD ISNT GOING TO SAVE YOU. THERE IS NO GOD YOU ARE YOUR OWN GOD YOU ARE THE CREATOR OF YOUR OWN LIFE . THERE HAVE BEEN MANY PEOPLE BEFORE US WHO HAVE DIED WHICH WISH THEY HAD A SECOND CHANCE FOR LIFE AS YOU HAVE.
YOU FUCKING IDIOT!! LIFE IS FULL OF WONDERFUL THINGS SUCH AS THE FEELINGS WE GET FROM BEING IN LOVE, CARING FOR YOURSELF AND OTHERS, EXCITEMENT AND JOY AND MANY OTHER THINGS.
YOU MUST HAVE LITTLE OR NO SELF ESTEEM BUT YOU SEEM TO HAVE THE CONFIDENCE TO TALK ABOUT YOURSELF IN FULL DETAIL THATS A START SO YOU CAN MAKE A CHANGE BY GOING TO A HEALTHCARE PROFESSIONAL AND TELL THEM WHY YOU FEEL THIS WAY MAYBE ITS JUST A CHEMICAL IMBALANCE IN YOUR BRAIN THAT CAN BE MANAGED OR IT MAYBE SOMETHING THAT NEEDS TO BE ADDRESS ONE ON ONE BY JUST TALKING TO SOME ONE WHO WILL GIVE YOU THE TOOLS AND THOUGHTS TO OVERCOME YOUR DEPRESSING AND SADIST BEHAVIOR AND GIVE YOU FEELING FOR YOURSELF AS LOVE, CARE, APPRECIATION.
I DONT BELEVE IN ANY GODS, RELIGION CREATES WARS AND LETS THE BAD AND NASTY PEOPLE OFF AND GIVES THEM A SECOND CHANCE WITH WHICH THEY DO NOT DESERVE SUCH AS BORN AGAIN CHRISTIANS ITS ALL A JOKE!! PEOPLE WHO RAPE , MURDER , MOLEST CHILDREN DESERVE TO ETHER BE LOCKED UP FOR THE REST OF THERE LIVES OR KILLED JUST AS THEY KILLED THERE VICTIMS, FUCKING THERE THE ONES THAT SHOULD BE DEAD!! NOT YOU!!

GET WITH IT GIRL!!

Anonymous said...

I finally realized why you are doing this. It's your sad little attempt at being more well known, since your ugly as boyfriend merely calls you his bitch. Such a title is undeserving, female dogs are more beautiful and more intelligent then you any day.

Whether this is real or fake, it still so pathetic that you had to do this to be more "famous". Most people at least DO something to be known, they actually do this little thing called post-secondary education and get themselves jobs instead of living with their parents complaining about useless crap.

You are a complete idiot retard and all those who think you are intelligent as just as much of an idiot as yourself.

It's shitty that you won't kill yourself, we need less useless people like you on this planet. ;)

Anonymous said...

“WHY?” It is tragic to see how much anguish and pain can be packed into that simple word. People often ask that question after disaster or tragedy strikes: A hurricane sweeps through a region, leaving death and destruction in its wake. An earthquake reduces a city to rubble. A terrorist attack changes a quiet, routine day into a nightmare of fear and violence. Or an accident injures or takes the life of a loved one.


Religious leaders have offered a confusing variety of answers
All too often, the victims include the most innocent and defenseless among us. Recent times have brought more than their share of such disasters, causing many to cry out to God, “Why?” Consider some examples:

“Why did you do this to us, God? What did we do to upset you?” Reuters news agency reported that an elderly woman in India asked those questions after a tsunami devastated her village.
“Where was God? And if God has ultimate control, why did God let this happen?” These questions were raised by a newspaper in Texas, U.S.A., after a gunman opened fire in a church, wounding and killing a number of worshippers.
“Why did God allow her to die?” A woman asked this question after cancer took her friend’s life, leaving the deceased’s husband to care for their five children.
These people are not alone in thinking that God is somehow behind their troubles. Regarding natural disasters, for example, nearly half the respondents in a recent Internet poll felt that disasters such as hurricanes come from God. Why do so many feel that way?

Religious Confusion
Instead of offering satisfying answers, religious leaders often contribute to the confusion. Let us focus on just three of their common responses.

First, many religious leaders preach that God sends disasters in order to punish wayward humans. For instance, in the United States, after New Orleans, Louisiana, was devastated by Hurricane Katrina, some ministers claimed that God had punished the city. They pointed to the prevalence of corruption, gambling, and immorality. Some even cited the Bible as evidence, noting occasions when God destroyed the wicked by flood or by fire. Such claims, however, misrepresent the Bible.—See the box “Acts of God?”

Second, some clergymen assert that God has his reasons for bringing about the calamities that befall mankind but that these reasons are beyond our comprehension. Many people find such a notion unsatisfying. They wonder, ‘Could a loving God really carry out such evil and then refuse to enlighten those who hunger for comfort and who pleadingly ask, “Why?”’ Indeed, the Bible says: “God is love.”—1 John 4:8.

Third, other religious leaders feel that perhaps God is not all powerful and is not loving. Once again, such an explanation raises serious questions. Is the One who “created all things”—including the unfathomably vast universe—incapable of preventing suffering on this one planet? (Revelation 4:11) How could the One who gave us the capacity to love, whose Word describes him as the very embodiment of love, be unmoved by human suffering?—Genesis 1:27; 1 John 4:8.
SOMETIMES a person asking the question “Why?” seeks comfort as well as answers, for when the question springs from severe loss, there is a great need for solace. Does the Bible offer such comfort? Consider three important Biblical truths related to this matter.


Are you satisfied with the results of human rule?
First, it is not wrong to ask why God allows suffering. Some people worry that posing such a question implies a lack of faith in God or disrespect for him. On the contrary, if you ask this question out of a sincere heart, you are in good company. The faithful prophet Habakkuk asked God: “Why do you make me watch such terrible injustice? Why do you allow violence, lawlessness, crime, and cruelty to spread everywhere?” (Habakkuk 1:3, Contemporary English Version) Jehovah God did not rebuke Habakkuk. Instead, he had that faithful man’s questions recorded for all of us to read.—Romans 15:4.

Second, it is important to understand that God feels for you in your plight. He is not aloof and mysterious; he is “a lover of justice,” and he detests wickedness and the suffering it causes. (Psalm 37:28; Proverbs 6:16-19) Back in the days of Noah, God felt “hurt at his heart” because of the violence spreading in the earth. (Genesis 6:5, 6) God has not changed; he does not feel differently about what is occurring today.—Malachi 3:6.

Third, God is never the source of wickedness. The Bible makes this quite clear. Those who attribute such things as murder and terrorism to God are maligning him. Note what Job 34:10 says: “Far be it from the true God to act wickedly, and the Almighty to act unjustly!” Similarly, James 1:13 states: “When under trial, let no one say: ‘I am being tried by God.’ For with evil things God cannot be tried nor does he himself try anyone.” So if you have suffered evil, rest assured that God is not the cause.

Who Rules the World?
The foregoing still leaves us with the question, If God is loving, just, and powerful, why are we surrounded by evil? One common misperception needs to be cleared up first. Many people think of Almighty God as the ruler of this world, the one who is in direct control of everything. “Not one atom or molecule of the universe is outside his active rule,” said the president of one theological seminary. Does the Bible really teach that?

Not at all. Many are surprised to learn what the Bible actually says about who rules the world. For example, 1 John 5:19 states: “The whole world is lying in the power of the wicked one.” Who is this wicked one? Jesus Christ identified him as Satan the Devil, whom he called “the ruler of the world.” (John 14:30) Now, does that not make sense? Satan is cruel, deceptive, and hateful—traits that underlie much of the suffering that people experience. Why, though, does God allow Satan to rule?

An Issue Raised in Eden
How would a loving and capable parent feel if he was publicly accused of lying to his children, abusing his authority over them, and withholding good things from them? Would he disprove those slanderous accusations by physically assaulting his accuser? Of course not! In fact, by reacting in such a manner, he might give credibility to the accusations.

This illustration helps to explain Jehovah God’s way of handling a challenge raised against him at the dawn of human history in a place called Eden. There God announced to the first two humans, Adam and Eve, a wonderful project for his earthly children. They were to fill the earth, subdue it, and turn it into a global paradise. (Genesis 1:28) Moreover, hundreds of millions of spirit sons of God were keenly interested in this exciting project.—Job 38:4, 7; Daniel 7:10.

Being a generous God, Jehovah gave Adam and Eve a beautiful garden home with all its delicious fruits. Only one tree was out of bounds for them—“the tree of the knowledge of good and bad.” By not eating from this tree, Adam and Eve would demonstrate their full trust in their Father, recognizing that he had the right to decide what was good and bad for his children.—Genesis 2:16, 17.

Sadly, though, one of God’s spirit sons, motivated by the desire to be worshipped, told Eve that if she ate the forbidden fruit, she would not die. (Genesis 2:17; 3:1-5) Thus, this wicked angel, Satan, blatantly contradicted God, essentially calling him a liar! Satan also went on to accuse God of withholding vital knowledge from Adam and Eve. Humans, Satan implied, should be able to decide for themselves what is good and what is bad. Simply put, Satan accused God of being an unfit Ruler and Father and implied that he, Satan, could do a better job.

By means of those cunning and malicious lies, the angel made himself Satan the Devil. These names mean “Resister” and “Slanderer.” What did Adam and Eve do? They sided with Satan, turning their backs on God.—Genesis 3:6.

Jehovah could have destroyed the rebels on the spot. But, as mentioned in our illustration, such issues cannot be settled by violent retaliation. Keep in mind too that when Satan challenged God, millions of angels were listening. In fact, a significant, but undisclosed, number later joined Satan in his rebellion, making themselves demons.—Mark 1:34; 2 Peter 2:4; Jude 6.

Why Has God Not Intervened?
By seducing Adam and Eve into choosing independence from their Creator, in effect, Satan founded a family that was not truly independent but under his authority. Influenced, knowingly or unknowingly, by their “father,” the Devil, this family would choose its own goals and standards of conduct. (John 8:44) But would that way of life bring them true freedom and lasting happiness? Jehovah knew full well that it would not. Still, he allowed the rebels to pursue their independent course, for only in this way would the issues raised in Eden be fully settled for all time.

For over 6,000 years now, mankind has built a world system of things, trying all kinds of rulership and codes of conduct. Are you delighted with the result? Is the human family truly happy, peaceful, and united? Clearly, the answer is no! Instead, wars, famines, natural disasters, sickness, and death have plagued mankind, causing “futility,” “pain,” and “groaning,” just as the Bible states.—Romans 8:19-22; Ecclesiastes 8:9.

Still, some may ask, ‘Why has God not prevented tragedies?’ Really, that would be an injustice, and it would cloud the issue by making it seem that rebelling against God is without consequence. Hence, Jehovah has not been behind the scenes preventing all the crimes and tragedies that result, directly or indirectly, from disobedience to him.* Jehovah would never be party to the harmful lie that Satan’s system can succeed, that it has found the key to happiness! Nevertheless, Jehovah has not been indifferent to events. In fact, he has been very active, as we shall now see.

“My Father Has Kept Working”
Those words of Jesus show that God has not been sitting idly by, watching events unfold. (John 5:17) Rather, since the rebellion in Eden, he has been very busy. For instance, he inspired Bible writers to record his promise that a future “seed” would crush Satan and all who stuck with him. (Genesis 3:15) Additionally, by means of that Seed, God would form a government, a heavenly Kingdom, that would bless obedient humans and end all causes of suffering, even death itself.—Genesis 22:18; Psalm 46:9; 72:16; Isaiah 25:8; 33:24; Daniel 7:13, 14.

As a step in the fulfillment of those wonderful promises, Jehovah sent to the earth the One who would become the primary Ruler of that Kingdom. This one was none other than Jesus Christ, the Son of God. (Galatians 3:16) In accord with God’s purpose for him, Jesus focused his teaching on God’s Kingdom. (Luke 4:43) In fact, Christ provided a living preview of what he will accomplish as King of that Kingdom. He fed hungry thousands, healed the sick, resurrected the dead, and even showed his power over the natural elements by calming a violent storm. (Matthew 14:14-21; Mark 4:37-39; John 11:43, 44) Concerning Jesus, the Bible states: “No matter how many the promises of God are, they have become Yes by means of him.”—2 Corinthians 1:20.

Those who listen to Jesus and come “out of the world”—the system of things that is estranged from God and ruled by Satan—are welcomed into Jehovah’s family. (John 15:19) This global family of true Christians is governed by love, committed to peace, and marked by determination to eradicate any trace of bigotry and racism in its midst.—Malachi 3:17, 18; John 13:34, 35.

Instead of upholding the present world, true Christians support and proclaim God’s Kingdom in obedience to Jesus’ command recorded at Matthew 24:14. Think: Who preach the “good news of the kingdom” worldwide? Who have refused, as a worldwide spiritual family, to engage in warfare and divisive national and tribal disputes? And who let God’s Word guide their conduct, whether its lofty standards are popular or not? (1 John 5:3) Many have observed these traits in Jehovah’s Witnesses. Please examine the evidence for yourself.

Decide for God’s Rule!
Mankind, alienated from God and misled by Satan, has built a world system that breeds more and more misery and hopelessness. Even the earth itself is being ruined! Jehovah, on the other hand, has set up a heavenly government that has changed the lives of millions for the better and that has given each one a sure hope. (1 Timothy 4:10) Which will you choose?

Now is the time to decide, for God will not allow Satan and his wicked world to go on indefinitely. God’s original purpose to make this earth a paradise has never altered. To that end, his Kingdom and its supporters will go from strength to strength, while the world under Satan’s control will experience increasing “pangs of distress” until God brings it to an end. (Matthew 24:3, 7, 8) So if you have sincerely cried out, “Why?” to God, listen to him by taking to heart the Bible’s message of comfort and hope. Even now, your tears of sorrow can become tears of joy.—Matthew 5:4; Revelation 21:3, 4.

Anonymous said...

PS: You actually need to PLAY video games to be considered a gamer, fucking a gamer doesn't count and neither does pretending to play or using terms such as "pwned" makes you a gamer either...

hurry up and die cunt.

Anonymous said...

I'm a little concerned that this "anti-suicide" blog is doing more harm than good. It looks like too many people haven't found the "suicide isn't sexy" button, and are therefore only getting angry and confused.

Anonymous said...

Lol, Hitler didn't get a bad death..(learn some history)
He killed himself with a gunshot.

Anonymous said...

Maybe this is fiction, maybe not. Regardless, I am bothered. My sister was just diagnosed with breast cancer at the age of 26. I think of the things she has ahead of her: chemotherapy, a mastectomy, etc. I think of how determined she is to fight for every day and how grateful we all are for each additional one. Then I chance upon this site and real or not, I think it's just awful. Why do good, worthy people get dealt nasty hands like cancer when perfectly healthy, ungrateful shits like you just throw life away?

Halfdan Reschat said...

That's just cruel. I feel sorry for your little sister.

Resilburg said...

Sorry to see all the bitching and moaning you get from other people when they cannot take two seconds to read through shit. As well, they take the time to judge you for your actions when they cannot see their own. It is always easier to judge others then it is yourself...

~Th3 4rch4ng3l

Vassily Chung said...

I love how the Christians come and preach on this page...

Anonymous said...

You're a foetus.
This can give her a trauma.
Just die before you damage other people.

Hamsters for life

Anonymous said...

The whole point of this blog is to gradually SHOW how people really do care about her, and to make the readers(some possibly suicidal) see what trauma and pain their deaths could cause. By making the character she is portraying do the most inconsiderate and selfish acts as she nears her plotted death, she is in a way showing just how stupid suicide is. I believe that is the goal of this blog, and by the way you are all reacting, she is doing a damn good job of it. Why would this even be an effective way to get 'e-fame'? She is doing a pretty good job of making her point imo, most of you are just too stupid to see it.

Slaiyen said...

seriously, I doubt you've been listening to My Chemical Romance this long....put something new up

Anonymous said...

Do you have any idea of how selfish you are!? To pull such a cruel prank on her like that.. I cannot find the words to tell you what I am thinking right now. Seriously, you saw her reaction when she thought you were dead, and you think it was funny!? Are you really going to go through with this - to make her and everyobody else broken-hearted like that?

Anonymous said...

The concept of the blog is great, but the posts you write are so artificial that starts to tire me.

From my point of view you failled your goal..

Anonymous said...

I only have one thing to say, and that is that this blog is a good distraction from my problems, normally i would be stuck with nothing and have to think about how bad it is, and then i would start to feel worse.. but this blog here is helping me very much. thankyou

Anonymous said...

Hi lady,

You are worthless as clown :-P

Suicide song 4 today:

- Ol' Dirty Bastard:

Shimmy Shimmy Ya


Sincerely Yours,

40.001 Admirer,

NoReplyBox

Anonymous said...

you are fuckin not ok if this blog is real than you despertly need help.
I yous fail to see you as a victm in this story.

Resilburg said...

Nope, not an angel or some Christian. Atheist to be exact. Funny how people come on blogs and make falsifications about other peoples tags. :)

Sad, though, that Tania puts a blog up and people have to bicker over one anothers views about what she has to say. Honestly, if you have nothing good to say then your not even worth the time to read about. Just another worthless piece of shit grown up just like in their family line.

GG people~

~Th3 4rch4ng3l

Anonymous said...

Wow, What an asshole bitch.

Anonymous said...

Tania you're pretty but dont be a loser and try getting noticed like this you fucking whore

Anonymous said...

lol, incredibly harsh and i dont even know how it crossed your mind, but still, so funny, p.s. honnestly i really dont understand why you are doing it in the first place, killing your self for real... just why???

pls leave your answer in this comment page

Anonymous said...

People click Suicide isn't sexy on the right side of the page. It says that this blog is fictional and a anti-suicide campaign.

Anonymous said...

I know that this is a fictional blog, but if you really did that, then it was cruel. You seem too sweet in videos, etc, to think of something like that.

Anonymous said...

[...]she started yelling at me that it wasn't funny (which of course it was)[...]

yeah, i think it was funny, but maybe some people may think that it is not.
good day :D

Anonymous said...

you know what you should kill yourself even though you wont end up doing it anyways.

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