I'm feeling a little depressed now. Which is great.
I've been spending my nights watching sad movies and trying to cry rather than getting some sleep, so my mental state has kind of almost been completely crushed already. Someone also gave me some pretty handy meditation techniques via e-mail (thanks) about how to train yourself to not care about anyone or anything anymore; which would save me a lot of moral conflict when I do the deed.
So far I'd still feel guilty about leaving my parents, my friends and my little sis behind, but I'm still working on it. My motto is, if you do something; do it right.
54 comments:
wow ur getting so close! if i was you id be really really nervous by now. i just dont see how somebody can have the actualy mental power to kill themselves... i dont think i would.
I just cant beileve that such a beautiful girl, sorry but i didnt read all ur comments yet, even thinks of a suicide. Life could be difficult but its still worth living it specially when u find someone who loves you and takes care about you. And something else....I see ur ''act'' in Athene's video's which makes me sad. When i see how he speaks to you i'd just go there and took you away from him. Athene is an idiot, im sorry if ur offended but still, even that he has not ''well'' family. That is my personal opinion.
could you pliz post that medication technique in your next post...we would all like to now how to hate everybody!
Ok well if you only have 27 days left i say go out and live it to the fullest instead of going emo and whatnot. Go out take some LSD and experiment with other drugs for the hell of it. In the end you will fell much better about death <3 chyea
Can you get this through your thick fucking heads shes not going to kill herself....
Yeah.... if it's taking THIS much work to even WANT to commit suicide, then maybe you shouldnt' do it, hun.
Hi Lady,
Can't belive you really receive those e-mails, anyway, Illuminated iPower crew if they are really in your inbox, you should publish it instead very BAD advices as tell the people that a non-sleep period can help to your depression.
That's really annoying! :/
Please, correct it.
Suicide song 4 today:
- Blue Oyster Cult:
Don't fear the reaper.
Sincerely Yours,
40.001 Admirer,
NoReplyBox
P.S
Still seeing your non-sleep anti-depression FAKE advice in your too-much readed blog.
Please, be careful with that advice it could hurt some folks over there..
:-(
NoReplyBox
I don't understand the point of this blog. And to you idiots, she's not killing herself it's fake and somehow is going to help people. lol I don't get that one just seems like an attention grabber although it's not a real suicide. Athene videos are pretty damn funny though and Tania is pretty damn sexy.
Dont for 1 second belive this FAKE shit of a show.
There is 1 reason for all this Tania killing Herself, and that is to gain Hits on Athene site, and from there Ipower..
Bad Taste is what this is.
Someone should find you and really kill you, then i would be so happy..
Tania, be glad i almost never get what i want!
You toke this suicide joke too far now.. TOO FAR..
If you get too many people to care about you, and feel sad for you, you could end up getting REAL problems when they find out you didnt die at all.. And belive me, someone will find out and tell all.. You cant make the perfect ending you hope for saying someone mailed you and made you change your mind.. That dont work, belive me someone will make people understand what this was really about..
Your move Tania
lol its Tania Derveaux from belgium! lol this is BS its an anti-suicide campaign she wont rly do shit. she just wants hits.
i like eggs how about you
Good Luck, i couldent kill myself, let alone cause myself pain on purpose X_X
Before you comment, it may be wise to read this... http://ipower.movielol.org/suicide.php
this reminds of the a movie based on the internet, that was about a site where they killed people, and the most views it got the faster this person was killed
so smart people from Belgium know that Athene is an actor, he just acts okay don't take it so seriously, he is a clown
AHahahaha. Go die, 'sif anyone cares.
The keywords for this blog are: Attention, seeker, emo, fag, cunt, laughable.
Funny. I lol'd
i think that you should stop doing this...you should never give up in life how much hard is it.i dont have a good life but i still living.you have your life,you can do everything what you want with it.your life looks like how you make it,all depends on you.i dont know...do you want to see your little sister in future?or have kids or anything?? (and sorry for my english)
How is letting some people think
that you are going to commit suicide anti-suicide, I just don't get this shit.
oh just kill yourself, no one cares about a countdown. do it now and take pics.
Look, it's my opinion that if any suicidal person reading this blog is stupid enough to latch on to this 'spoof' like some sort of a "guiding hand" that somehow facilitates them into pulling the trigger, then they were pretty much right about one thing: This kind of stupidity NEEDS to be eradicated from the Earth.
Tania please dont kill yourself!! PLEASE!! you cant die...at least not yet...not before you repay me those 2 Euros that I spent buying you those Belgian waffles.....oh, wait! nevermin! You repaid me the same day. nevermind, go ahead and off yourself!
Don't ever think of killing yourself for being such a dork. I know people have better reasons to feel like they want to do such a thing, but I, for one, am telling you...you're kind of a dork, and that is no reason to up and splatter yourself all over the place.
If you do not kill yourself, it shows that you are a fake, which you possibly are, with your 1 microsecond appearances, it's probably some girl Athene dreams about and never could not get so he had to settle for his boyfriend.
DO NOT WORRY ALL!
I HAVE HER IP ADDRESS (WHERE HER COMPUTER IS SITUATED)!!!
I HAVE PHONED THE POLICE AND THEY ARE GOING THERE TO MAKE SURE SHE DOESN'T DO ANYTHING!
try to meditate w the song gloomy sunday.it is a suicidal music.
You really should not pull this, my dad committed suicide two months ago, and we are still feeling the effects of it.
Suicide....
Tania ... wow
hello can you please forward me the "how to train yourself to not care about anyone or anything anymore" mail ... please i rly need it to. zexe4ever gmail com
Okay, Just read the page with refernce to your blog stating:
"More than ten people thus far have mailed to say it changed their mind about committing suicide and effectively saved their lives."
Firstly, would they have REALLY killed themselves if they didn't read your blog.
And Secondly, How many people HAVE killed themselves BECAUSE of your blog?
You THINK you are doing good but I suspect it's the other way round. Would you actually get any mail saying "Yes Tania, just read your blog and have decided to finish myself off".... No they wouldn't, they would just get on with the job.
i killed myself it aint hard u know wahts hard getting heveanreaped by god and some faggot little angels thats very fag im in heaven now and now it rocks my poopy is like 20cm in diameter and it owns so cmon kill rself im an angel now ^^
I hope you fucking kill yourself you fucking worthless pice of shit whore, the world wont be a shit different after your death
I just cant beileve that such a beautiful girl even thinks of a suicide. Your crazy girl dont do it your beutiful and I am sure thats is much more in you then you beuaty so dont kill yourself you will waste your life! DONT DO IT!
im agustin from Uruguay..
first of all.. escuse my english!
i dont know how i came to you log
but... i started reading
and i think... that you shouldnt do it..
i mean... i know its 'your' desition
but... are you a good person, or a bad one?
cause... i lost my dad two years ago... and you dont imagine how hard it is to me thinking of that... even now... i still think he is alive and he is not 'around' us... but when i realize the truth... i know hes dead
and nohing could bring him back again
dont you think of your sister?
your mom, your dad?
you should be thankfull that you DO have them
i mean... if i lose my older brother
i certenly would like to kill myself...
im 16 by the way... and almost two months ago i started to like a girl...
now (althoug i cant belive it yet) shes my girlfriend!...
and more and more im starting to realize that theres more to life than life and death...
this life... even though its not perfect... its beautiful
and i dont want any other life than this one...
i dont belive in god... but i belive that anyone has another chance in life...
that shouldnt be "death"...
but if you want to suuicide... ill be very disapointed
and more than disapointed.. ill be sorry... for your family
and specialy for you... that your losing all those good things in life that makes it beautiful...
its your life (like you said)
its a hard world
just try to see the good things it has got
and im not going to tell you 'not to kill yourself' but im really going to insist... that you should life this '27 days left' in the most happy and beautiful days in your life... (not depressing yourself)... this last days of your life should be amazing, making you think that life can be really beautiful and that you leave this life in the most happy way possible,
giving everybody the chance to know that (like you said, if you do something, do it rigth) life shouldnt be lived.. so kill yourself... but while you do it... know that life is beutiful and that no one else can take away that happiness life gave you
i think that should be a very good reason to do it...
if you do it this way... you could almost become a 'legend' not becaouse the way you died, because the way you lived your life...
that would reach a lot of peoples hearts and minds... and you could give them a chance to live
sincerily
agustin
any way.. if you would like to talk about it...
aguslord@msn.com
or
www.fotolog.com/par_agu_ayo
good luck to you ;)
lawl...just do it already.....
Well if you really plan to do that find a way to post a video here (like ask some1 or a macro to upload the video)
I really don't know what to say, it's your choice.
You aren't looking so bad tbh :D
Bye, bye I'l make this blog favourite for now.
Just a question
Who is going to photograph your fashionable suicide?
I just want to know how would you end your life? Jump out from a tall building? Buring coal to let yourself get poison by carbon monoxide? Or just cut a hole from the artery?
Ha! You make me laugh soo much with you'r "Suicide" HA! LOL it's just soo funny! Espically the people going with your act! Hillarious!!!
I'm confused. Really what's the point? Ratings? Some stupid sociology report? See how many replies? Is she "killing off" a character..
This seems like the couple that were "virgins" that were going to have the videocast.It was all a hoax..
Anything that ties in with that Athene guy is BS anyway. Maybe it'll be a pay per view..
This is twisted, there are people out there really planning on killing themselves and i can't help but feeling this whole blog is insulting to those who have REAL problems, i've just lost a lot of respect for Athene and the whole"I-POWER" idea. This really has backfired and is just going to get you a lot of BAD publicity.
thats a great movie tania.
GO TO THE MAIN PAGE AND CLICK ON THE RIGHT WHERE IT SAYS: Suicide isn't sexy!!!! READ IT! I appreciate what you are trying to do here but I think you are going about it in a very very wrong way. I don't think this is helping anyone. You and your friends are warped. This isn't funny. Suicide is SERIOUS! It's not a game or an advertising campaign to get viewers to your F#$king YouTube Channel! We are talking about people that need help. If you want to help spread the word about being ANTI SUICIDE THIS ISN'T THE WAY TO DO IT! Your post from now on should be about seeking help. Noticing that your thoughts are not right. Maybe even about PRAYING! YES I SAID IT~ There is a GOD! He IS REAL~ And SAVED ME FROM TAKING MY LIFE! Start Trying to FIX the Problem and not perpetuate it! It Sick! It in Poor Taste! It's NOT HELPING!!!!!!
I think most, if not all of us, believe that suicide is a serious matter. Tania herself stated that this is something that she wanted to do and that no one can change her mind. I'm highly positive that any of the remarks we say will change that. Clearly if you have full intent on pursuing something like this, you would not change your mind simply because an "anonymous" said otherwise. I hope that Tania is just putting a 90 day entertainment spree for all of us; however, in the off chance or real chance she does follow through with this ordeal the final decision is not up to us, but her own. Its in my opinion that she would have already killed herself long ago if she really were suicidal. Making statements just as these is for fun and attention, which isn't wrong.
Brutal. Me encanta este rollito provocador "Suicide Girl", desde siempre incluso desde antes que ofrecías servicios de prostitución si te votaban.....
Un Simple Fan
I see a lot of comments that say don't kill yourself because you are sexy... Why are you thinking that ordinary people should commit suicide? Why does beautiful ones should not do that more than ordinary ones? Does the contribution of beautiful people to the society really justify that they pass before others on things like that!!
Wake up almost all the people look bad according to what we see at the television. Who decide who is beautiful and who is not? Is it really your personnal opinion?
If you think you earn to live because you are hot, find better reason befores others decide that you are not.
go back to tania's blog and on the right side of the page towards the bottom in red letters it says "suicide isn't sexy". CLICK IT! it tells you all about how this blog is completely fake. here is what it says:
suicide blogger '90 day jane' recently caught a lot of viewer's attention. she started blogging anonymously about her last 90 days in a similar way demonstrated on our site. even though the '90 day jane' blog turned out to be fiction and was recently removed, it has inspired a wave of suicide blogging. based on the '90 day jane' blog, tania's fictional blog exaggerates certain aspects to offer a more critical look at this disturbing trend."
FAKE FAKE FAKE! you should really go kill yourself bitch.
Grave of the Fireflies FTW :3
How can you watch a movie like Grave of the Fireflies--a film about two kids trying their damndest to survive, despite having lost their mother, no home, and no one to take care of them--and think of suicide? This seems like a total joke. It'd make more sense if she were watching sad films that romanticized death, not something like Grave of the Fireflies. She isn't planning on actually killing herself.
This is fake
try to fall in love. then u be really depressed.
Me too ^_^
I'll make you cry, with ocular penetration.
Me too. Faggot.
Grave of the Fireflies is such a good movie.
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