Seeing that the big day is approaching pretty rapidly now I've been finding myself getting afraid.
Not afraid of dying, but afraid of living. Afraid of doing anything that might cheer me up or make me feel alive, anything that could be fun or exciting, because that would only make things harder on myself eight days from now. I broke contact with all my friends, only speak to my mother when strictly necessary, and I do my best to avoid my sister 24/7 because I just couldn't bear seeing her now.
This is the final countdown of my life.
82 comments:
Dying is boring...
Why do you do this anyway???
isn't it abit ego to let your family alone back with you taking your life ???
I dont see why you should do this.
stop while time is still here
what im finding interesting is each post that comes closer and closer to d-day i'm finding in the context of your writing your each day passes writing about why you shouldn't.
Suicide isn't a date or a plan. It's an emotional spur of the moment. No one at least seriously would countdown the day to suicide.
I also find it amusing how recent videos your chummy chummy and using your sex appeal but suicidal?
you talk about net neutrality like it means something but your life as if its nothing or a joke.
look in the mirror, take away the perverts and know damn well your gorgeous. Dead doesn't solve a thing except food for the insects. Alive gives people chance to right their wrongs
I have an EXTREAMLY good reason why life is worth living.
It is worth living to witness all the cute bunny rabbits in the world. :D
If you don't agree with me, look at this: http://www.in-sect.com/scr/cute_bunny.jpg
Do you still want to commit suicide now?
could you do me 1 favor, get naked before dying. And post it on the interweb.
But seriously dont kill yourself, do get naked though ^^
Veel succes
lol obviously this is fake and she will not kill herself. But i do hope she gets killed after that day comes for putting this fake shit on the web to get attention
I'm scared myself.
I'm scared of living, of dying, of people talking to me, either saying good or bad comments.
I don't like being criticized, yet I don't like when people commend me also.
I sometimes wish I was a ghost. I wish I could never be seen, but see the joy and lives of all the people I love. I want to love, but I don't want love in return.
Words don't even matter to me. I write them, but they don't make me feel better. There is know cure to the sickness of life, not even death.
I seem to be following down your path. I haven't talked to you before, but I have witnessed every day that has passed on for you the past 82 days, and I need to talk to you. I really need help from you.
Please e-mail me.
jacobnoah1@yahoo.com
haha i'm so excited! this is so much better than lonelygirl15!
With your suicide it would NOT stop for you with your last breath. All our actions are part of this World and affect us, people around and to some extent everything. You may not believe that there is something after a physical death of a body, it is your choice what you believe or not while still here and alive. But consider how many people in history were wrong in their beliefs and the things turned out to be quite different then. So imagine that you carry out your (wrong) intention, then your being suddenly gets into a different space than our 3D world here. Maybe even the time may not pass that quickly there as it does here. But your deed of suicide will be on you still there, no matter what happens to your dead body or what people might talk about here. So imagine it would happen that your soul/spirit/being/whatever will not cease to exist in there. Do you want to bear this heavy burden with you?
I still believe God will touch your heart in time because nowhere else you find true love. Only in Him who loves you more than your parents or any man.
And nothing is impossible for God who gave you this life.
Regardless of whether or not you die via suicide or whatever... just understand this: The total true basis of Christianity is that we are supposed to die for our sins, no matter how small... and the reason Jesus came to die on the crucifix is to die in our place for our sins... All of our sins, past present and future. He went through life without sin, and became the sacrificial death for us. He paid the price with his life that we're supposed to pay. It was God's gift to us, because without it, it is impossible to be at home with God. But just like any other gift, we need to take hold of and accept the fact that Jesus did that for us. Otherwise, all you'd have is basically a insanely large but uncashed check in your mailbox.
So does this cover even the final act of suicide? Yes. However, I don't understand why a person would want to do something so irreversable and final after understanding God's love. But then there is a lot I don't understand about people. :-l
Grace and peace be upon you.
my god you commenters are stupid!! this is not real (sadly enough). it's all some anti-emo publicity ploy.
now with that out of the way, i would say with complete conviction that anyone posting that europe album cover should be shot on sight. the final countdown should be until someone else puts a bullet in your brain. get a life and/or clue. rent one if you can't afford.
you christians are morons. if this dumb bitch did off herself, there would be no pearly gates. no fictional dead guy there to welcome her or damn her. use some of whatever gray matter you were born with and wake the fuck up.
p.s.: for anyone considering suicide, don't use pills. not reliable enough. wrist slitting oddly doesn't usually work either. i recommend a large caliber handgun placed under the chin. it's quick, efficient, and guaranteed to work. those weak enough to give up on life should do the gene pool a favor and exit sooner rather than later.
I have followed your "count down" for the past 3 days and trying to make heads and tails of it with very, and I stress, very little success. I guess all I really have to say is why? Why make a count down to if/when you are going to umm make life simpler? Why not just make a video of it call it art and post it somewhere? Or why not just call it all off cause you have so much to live for blah blah blah? I just don’t seem to understand your train of thought behind a count down to ones own demises. My personal belief is that one shouldn't kill ones self because that’s just show that everyone that cause you to go down that road was really right in the way that you can't handle whatever it is going on in your life at the moment. In a way it’s taking the easy road out. Life gives use problems and it’s our job to over come the problems and move on. Also, as a human in their sane and right mind I believe we not only need to focus solely on our own problems but help others that are having trouble with theirs problems. I feel as if I don't post something even if it doesn’t get read that I'm doing my job as a human to try and save another person’s life regardless of their acting, thought, beliefs, and life style. So to sum up everything I have to say (now this goes for everyone that reads this) stop and ask yourself why. Ask yourself is it really worth it. Is it worth hurting all that care for me even if I don't know about it? Is it right for me to turn a blind eye to something when I know I can intervene? For all we can do as a human race is to care for each other and help. We are an interesting breed. We are able to produces the most beautiful of dreams and the most horrid nightmares. So let it be what it may I just hope that you do what is right in my eyes and overcome your problems and continue on with your life. I wish you’re the best of luck.
-MVMurphy
You are a very determined person. i bet you could aim your determination away from your suicide and achieve anything you wanted. if you don't want to do it, don't.
I've been following this blog for a while now, and I have come to the conclusion that this person is full of crap. There will be no suicide in 8 days, there will simply be the end of the blog. It will be the blog suicide equivelent to the ending of the Sopranos, except without Journey playing in the background. For irony, this girl should set this blog to a Journey tribute site, with "Don't stop Believin'" playing on a loop in the background.
Meanwhile, while y'all are still believin' your hearts away, it will turn out that this attention whore is doing something for a school project, or she's an aspiring model/actress who's looking for publicity and y'all are sucking it back hook line & sinker.
who needs a blog countdown? Just go kill yourself already lady and spare us all the drama. But you don't want to kill yourself - you just want/need for everyone to write to you to beg you not to. What a pathetic cry for attention. Just do it already. Want to borrow a pistol? I'll even load it for you. There's just zero validity to this blog - not one genuine sign of you being suicidal except talking about it ad naseum.
Jesus woman - it's been months. Don't you think it's time to STFU and just end OUR misery hearing about your fake misery?
Here's irony - what if someone following this blog decided to help you out. You know, when it turns out that this is all a big goof on all the readers. And hypothetically, say someone threatened to kill you....what could you do? You've been talking about it for this long, is that even a threat or simply an offer of help?
But none of that matters because in 9 days you'll still be alive and well. The made-up name you used and this blog will indicate that you're not, but I don't believe that shit for an instant.
The only way I will ever believe any of this is if you post a video clip of you killing yourself by whatever means...hanging, pills, slashing wrists, poison, listening to 6 straight hours of nothing but Backstreet Boys and Brittney Spears records...whatever means you use, go ahead and film it and have your loved ones post it.
Otherwise go fuck yourself you attention whore drama queen. You and your miserable life of being pretty, intelligent and technically savvy - yeah, you've got it so bad. Woe is you. Now STFU and do it already, jesus.
Honestly, Tania, I don't think you should do it. I'll say more in an e-mail I'll send you.
XxXxX
OMG. Just die already! I can't wait any longer!
*cries* No! dont do it! its not right! *balls like a baby*
So upon looking through this site and beyond, it appears that this is indeed bullshit. You aren't going to kill yourself.
I am disappointed. After reading your steamy piles of shit, I was kind of looking forward to it.
:(
This is a slap in the face for all of the families of suicide victims. You kill yourself and you kill a part of those around you.
I hope it hurts...a LOT...
Tania looks fat in the latest ipower vid... hardly a sign of someone committing suicide
Let me ask you a question......
When you prepare for your act, when you decide it is your time, what would you say to the man in bed fighting for his life, for just one more day with his family. Would you so quickly slap him in the face by showing you wasting yours in front of him?
What if this man was your father, your grand father, your brother, would you hand them a knife aswell?
You do not only kill your body.
You kill your soul, and the souls that are bound to it also.
What you consider is selfish.
Everyone has clicked the suicied is not sexy link eh.
You all know this is an awareness page right?
Shhh. its a secret ;)
I....
had i dream about you....
at least i think it was u....
dont do it.
Hi
just kill yourself
i just can say that such sites are not really funny. Life is the most important thing in the world and you play with some dumb guys which really think you want so suicide. its just all about blabla in your site, not more/less.
Youre saying that you do whatever you can to not cheer yourself up so it will be easier to kill yourself... Why kill yourself if there are things in life you appreciate and like? And if youre sick of your life, just take all your money and go to some amazing place, and just have fun and then if you in the end still feel like shit, sure consider killing yourself. But right now it feels like you dont really have any good reason for it. You seem like a nice person anyway. And well, this blog might be fake, but if its not, I really hope you change your mind :)
Alexandra
AN HEROINE BITCH
Please don't kill yourself, Tania. You are too beautiful to die...whether it be merely a virtual suicide, or a real one. You are young and have much more to live for than say, me, for example.
IDIOT
oh i cant tell you what to do i am not your friend or not even somone you know but if you want to listen to me so listen i have a friend who wanted to suicide becush he had a lot of problems in is life and nobody wanted to help him i talked to him for 6 hours on a roof top i told him that its not a solve to the problem this way you just running from the problem and you are doing the same as him i cant tell you not to do it but i belive that you dont have to do it
First, congratulations on making such a huge step in life. I was mucking around on the Internet one day and I found this website where there was a bloke making a rather strong statement about committing suicide. Although he didn't manage to show me any titties (because, obviously, he had none), he nonetheless suggested a few awe-inspiring ways of ending one's life, including head-butting the sidewalk and eating a bathtub-full of beans. But, heck, this is Tania we are talking about here, right? So why not do something Tania's way?
Seeing that you are such a mistress of sexual innuendos, I believe it is the best for you to carry out at least one of your gag promises for real - for a change. To make the remaining days of your life easier, I have even composed a list of methods you can choose from so that when you eventually end your life, you may do so in a manner that will be forever remembered by the rest of mankind. Well, here we go...
Choose from one of the following way in which to commit suicide:-
a) Perform oral sex continually and unceasingly with 40,000 men until death.
b) Perform coitus continually and unceasingly with 400 virgin men until death.
c) Acquire as many form of sexually-transmitted diseases in and refuse medical treatment until death.
d) Abstain from food in Greenland glaciers, where ambient temperature is constantly below zero degree Celsius, wearing absolutely nothing but a sign stating "I am the sex goddess of the free Internet" until death.
Optionally, perform the following act while carrying out one of the above suicide methods:-
e) Vlogging
Once you have materialised your spectacular death, I will posthumously nominate you for the prestigious Darwin Award, and I shall remember your death each and every year by ritually laughing at your untimely demise.
No, don't say thanks to me. It's my pleasure!
Hello Tania, Realy You Kill Myself in 90 Day ????
P.s mmm Tania is Russian Popular Name...
What time are you broadcasting the ceremony in 8 days ?
If you haven't decided yet, I'd suggest you make it around 7:30 pm, so people can nicely chill after work, and enjoy the show while having dinner.
Moreover, to make sure its official, I think you should create some sort of mailing list along with your testament, in which you could state that all your subscribers are invited to the funerals.
Imagine, all these people that e-cared so much about you, a beautiful rain of fake tears..
Hello, my name is Alexandra,
I'm from israel and i 15 years old.
From the day i remmber myself i can
see myself crying every night.
becouse people hate me, my family
hate me, i never has a real friends
in class A the kids broked my two
legs, just for game.
i see myself like unbeautiful and
stupid girl, i tried to kill my
self three times, but i stoped.
now i live just for revenge, to
all people what hurt me. and then
i'll go for really, i just want you
to know, i don't try to stop you.
everyone have good and bad things in hes life, everyone need to know
hot to fight with the bad things and smile to the good thing, you
just need to keep fight and you'll
see what life not so bad for you,
if you want just to talk with me
my messenger is: freestyler93@gmail.com
i wish you luck, and the right way.
life it's cruel, but this is life
and people know this, there is a
people what don't have house, or
family, they never see real food
but they are stay alive, couse they
want. they keep fight for the love and the good. are you have a reason to kill yourself?
Dear Tania,
I am your Catholic friend !
I determined to accompany you until the end !
Everyone would sin, butthe difference between a sinner and a saint: A sinner is someone who admit one's fault but a sinner is someone who never admit one's fault.
Today I introduce to you Gregorian chants, click to you tube, enter the following terms:
"Gregorian chant",
"Christmas Vespers in a Benedictine Abbey",
"Benedictine", etc.
I think these chants can pacify you and give you serenity...
The third thing I want to mention is a critique about the international language---English, In my opinion, English is the easiest alnguage in the world but by dint of its too simplified grammar, it always exposed the caprice of this world and make the user capricious as well as easily affected by negativeness.
Try to learn a foreign language.
Pray for you.
now you'r gonna get bored in the afterlife... i still dont understand why you wanna die... dont you think you will, why do u feel like this about living??? just because life is boring and meaningless it doesnt say u have to kill yourself, it seems like you made them like that, put some meaning into your life, at least try to enjoy them, there is no reason to let go until you have experienced the good things in life.
actually, every day you write about how scared u are, and how much you love your family and sister, and that you have friends? what the hell is your problem? are u seeking for attention?
one more thing, you do really copy her http://suicide.movielol.org/jane.html
face it, you love life. just dont kill yourself and act psycho, cause then you'll get psycho. right now you're just a girl who are happy but find life boring, well. instead of writing here, go and do something. it'll be fun!
You are sick, seriously! If you wanna do a suicide and write about it in 3 months you are sick. And if you are joking, you are even more sick...
Please let me kill you..
You say you love you family and have friends. And they love you!
Your a fukking EGO. And dont pretend you dont know about it. You're childish, wanna make people feel sorry about you.
Please just go and die. Because people dont diserve you. You dont diserve a good life.
(sorry my english)
go ahead just remember to have the mvie uploaded, it would be a good thing to see.
Seriously guys, read over the entire page before you comment. Some people will never learn.
Killing yourself makes you a retard, why dont you spend the rest of your life helping others, who has it worse then you?
Such a waste of a pretty face.
Life won't give me love and peace, it's my job to will it, but life will give me time and space, it's my job to fill it. Death is all aroudn me and someone as beautiful as you shouldn't even considder taking your own life. thinktank
I personally think what your doing is retarded...And also before i say this im telling you im not a rude guy...but you obviously want attention... if you want to die so damn bad just do it .. i mean shit why the fucking count down??
If your going to do it .. do it .. all your site is doing is drawing attention to a situation that is fucked up which is somone taking their life with no regaurds for the people whom care/love them.. so good luck with your selfish deed that you are going to do ... im letting you know now that what you are doing is not something you can take back.. its not a blog you can delete...i hope your proud of yourself... your going to be known in time as a girl that took her own life and never did anything to help better this world we live in.
Wait this is fake isnt it? I mean such a girl like you aint gonna commit suicide right?I mean your young and attractive why the hell should you ever do something that stupid?!?!In case this is indeed true listen up: Life is wonderful and sadly its not eternal.There are men and women who got killed for your right of posting the fact that you want to waste your life in such a stupid way so please avoid doing so.Listen to me leave this countdown to 8 and start off a new life, free yourself of all the crap that depresses you and pretend you where born on the day that the countdown stopped to eight.
Whats this all about?
Thats Tania if u scroll down to the middle of the page :S
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/NEE
Europe best rock group ever <3
ok so here you go... this is the first time that i have heard of you wanting to die. Personaly I disagree with your opinion that you are just anopther human with nothing significat to offer. I personaly love life and think that each day is a challenge. Yes there are days that I wish that I could runoff and die but the good days way out number the bad. I think that if you think about it you have made a huge impact on this planet, I mean how manny of the billoins of people out there have a web page that othere people go to to hopefully discurage you from killing yourself. You have reached more people in your vlogs on you tube than alot of others, you have over 42,000 people that tune into you every week or more to see what you ALL have to say. I cant stop you from going through with this but I think that every life is important. you never know whoes life you might change just for being strong and keep going on. you are a very beautifull woman and I think that any guy would be luck to have you as a girlfriend/wife/mistress what ever but I think that you should keep living and be a inseration to others even those that you never meet and only see you on here and on youtube. Well that my ranting. I really do hope that you change you mind. If i dont hear from you I do wish you a great life and give you all the love that I can give you with out trully knowing you.
ERIC
I feel sorry 4 ya grl... Life is wonderful, and youre trying 2 ignore it... I do feel sorry 4 ya grl...
biggest attention whore I've ever seen...
ure insane.....in the membrane
Did u saw one of the best films in this mad mad World?
I think it was not present yet.
But it not a way to be a disappointment.
But look it from the start to the end.
Otherwise in it there is no sense. Probably you will wanna see it again. I hope )
\"Secret," \ And on the other hand, I hope that it helps anyhow, in any a case....
see ya ^^
Yeee
And sry for my english )))
I'am just from Russia )))
I'am just from Russia )))
I will stune you!!
PS Igos 4mo a ya kpivetko
I'am just from Russia )))
my neme is CASH
Okay. I've followed your blogging for a quite long time now. I'm not gonna say: don't kill yourself like the rest, because I think it's your decision to make. It's all up to you, and your decision is really understandable.
I have some question for you: how are you planning to kill yourself? And how are we gonna know that you actually did it? I'm sitting here in Sweden, and... It makes me upset/crazy that I never will know what happened to you after your "suicide".
The real question is: how do I know that this isn't fake?
If you don't do it, I'll be super disappointed.
We need less idiots like you alive. In fact, just go ahead and do it. You're just wasting oxygen for the rest of us.
yo wasap
im a big fan of urs now that u r going 2 kill urself i am 2 going 2 kill myself. thank you!!! see u in hell!!!
love Deth.
Do what you think you have to do if you're sure you need to do it. However, I say don't waste our time with this. There really is no point in killing yourself, because some form of you will continue to exist, be it through this site, or through the memories of others. Anything that you have in any way affected will make sure you live on. You'll be spinning in your grave through the irony. So go ahead. But there is no point in attempting to erase yourself when you know it can never, and will never end on your terms.
im not gonna deflect you on your viewpoints about killing yourself or anything -- do as you wish... but if you'd be kind enough before d-day -- post nude photos of yourself on the web before you do whatever is coming for you in your mind..
leave a parting gift for the rest of us..
thanks.
RIP ahead of time.
If this wasn't fake (read the side of the damn blog people, there's a tab "suicide isn't sexy")
I was waiting for you to bring that classic Europe into this XD
now my wait is up :(
Do it 7 days early. Naked pictures first.
I'm not going to try and stop you or feel my views... I just hope you find what you're looking for with your plan...
As anonymous said, dying is boring. Living, at least you have the potential to experience something positive.
Tania I hope you read this. The comments are far more interesting than your "suicidal" blog. The whole idea of this blog is just fucking stupid. I bet you are not really well educated or you just happen to have a bird's brain. COME ON, WHO WOULD STUCK ON THIS PAGE IF NOT ALL THE HEAT SEEKERS AND CATHOLIC PPL. You're just an attention whore. I hope you stop this and do something good.
hello.
well this is a clearly fake, well that i think atleast.
anyhow.. if its real well only yourself can stop you. people cant tell you what to do since you seems really sure on yourself. with that i mean you are strong in yourself wich is not common to normal people. people with intelligense understand more, and its clear people around you dont have or got the same power to think as you.
think again why people cant understand you. i think its because you are more powerful in your mind then those people.
and about the question you had. no not many people will care if you die. you know why? because everyone in the world dont know you.
but the people in YOUR world will really care. and that is the important thing.
i dont know what have happened you because you dont mention anything. the only answer on that may be that this is because we dont have any pain in our world like world war. well i dont know.
anyway i been close to death many times. i survived a suicide.
my soul was broken, i had nothing to live for.
well after this shit happened to me, i saw the reality, that i am important, people around me loves me and care for me.
NEVER think that people around you dont care, because they DO!
anyway, i dont know if you think that way, you dont mention anything.
in a other way i see you are just tired on everything. tired to live with yourself.
try to solve why you think and you self picture..
anyway.. if this is a fake as i think.. i think you write really really good, you should work on this strong side of yours
-
nadya
I am not going to try to convince you not to do this, I merely wanted to state that the amount of time that you have set before yourself to do this really has no meaning...
If you truly think about it time is just a bunch of numbers, and everyone has a certain predetermined set of numbers that they will be on this earth for and everyone is different, I dont really think your cutting that number short just that in 8 days your number is truly ending.
whether or not you believe in an afterlife I hope your spirit is at peace after you are gone.
You will be missed even if no one who reads your blog wants to admit it you have touched all of our lives in some way.
you dumbfucks. if you click on the bottom right icon "suicide isn't sexy", it shows that this is not for attention but to an active stance to stop an internet suicide-blog culture. tania is too hot to kill herself. only ugly girls do it. peace!
p.s. athene u suck in arena. but you got skeeelz
please, make a porn movie before you kill yourself
I am a poor american boy who lives on mcdonalds dollar menu i watch athene videos just to see you, i think you are the most wonderful specimen of a woman, before you go maybe you could make a little vlog on youporn.com because you know you are always showing off your great breasts but what good is it but tease and thats not cool. give us the real thing, the devoted fans deserve it whether or not you off yourself.
I am a poor american boy who lives on mcdonalds dollar menu i watch athene videos just to see you, i think you are the most wonderful specimen of a woman, before you go maybe you could make a little vlog on youporn.com because you know you are always showing off your great breasts but what good is it but tease and thats not cool. give us the real thing, the devoted fans deserve it whether or not you off yourself.
Fuckin kill yourself already you attention whore slut
Marry me before you want to Die.....One loof at you and ....wooooow
hmmm...it was "8 days left" 2 days ago. guess the charade is finally over? now all the boo-hoo "please don't do it!" morons and christian idiots will have to wonder...did she do it early??? oh my god...not that...nooooo!!!!
anyone who at any time believed for one instant that this dumb bitch was going to kill herself needs to jump off of the highest bridge closest to them immediately if not sooner. you are too stupid to live and will be doing the planet a huge favor.
stick to the tittie shaking videos athene. that's what you're good at.
Lol we all know you are not going to kill yourself.
Just like athene. Want attention.
If you didn't care about life like you say then you wouldn't care about updating this. Or paying for this website. Or doing your iPower movies.
Get over yourself.
just do it now, like im about to.. and for crying out loud, stop whining about it.
bye
I think that you should take care of your life and realy live it. You maybe never get it again. Ever.
How are you going to kill yourself??? are you planning to donate your organs?? that would be a very good idea!!!!!
Yawn.
europe sucks, lol
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