So my little sister learned about life and death the other day.
I went to see my mother today and she told me that our dog Emilio (well, actually my sister's dog) died yesterday. Apparently he got run over by a car, the poor thing wasn't even 4 years old. In any case my sister was still in tears over it, and she told me later in her room that she felt really guilty about it because she might have been able to prevent it somehow and that she would never forgive herself.
I can't imagine what she'll feel like in 41 days. But I guess I don't really have to imagine either, it'll just make it harder.
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You know what. Ask yourself, would god want you to do this? Just go to church one day and think about it
You know what... YOU CANT DO THIS I LOVE YOU YOU SO BEAUTIFUL, YOU DESERVE TO LIIIIIIVEEE!!, LIVE FOR ATHENEE!!, RESPECT!
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I don't understand why you're gonna kill yourself...you're very beautiful. With that said, do you want to come to my city and fuck like rabbits? I mean...you wouldn't feel to bad about it if you're going to kill yourself, right? I'll keep checking your blog...let me know what you think.
there is no god..only retards who r weak minded believe in god..ur life is ur life..
Beauty has nothing to do with it. Everyone is beautiful. Life is beautiful.
That cheesy Youtube video you did with Athene, where you're in the backyard learning how to quest is probably the most badass funniest thing in the world.
You're young, intelligent, beautiful and you've got tens of thousands of silly fanboys who would do anything to make you change your mind if they knew about this blog.
Here's to finding something to live for, Tania. Good luck!
Alex
Are you doing this for attention so that you keep getting complimented with people saying "nooooo! don't do it!", does it make you feel special when you get this attention?
Maybe you should get off your ass and do some fucking humanitarian work instead of listening to "My Chemical Romance" so that you can stop being such a emo and ACTUALLY make the difference in the world you supposedly want... killing yourself sound more like running away then facing the issues at hand.
do it, just do it! i know u can! love u too!
Tania, I wonder what sort of guidance you gave to your sister during her mournful time. I picture you being very attentive and consoling her, but I don't get the sense you're a very -outwardly- emotional person. I wonder if you cried when you decided to take your life or if you could shed a little information about the last time you cried - for real, none of that frivolous crap girls usually cry about. I'd like to know so much more about you, but I guess you're taking the bulk of what's made you who you are today...to the grave. And that's my problem, I know. But even after still, I'm perpetually drawn to your mysteries like a moth to a flame. I want to know you think you are ever going to cry again before you die.
R.I.P.
"Emilio"
I honestly hope that you dont actually plan on ending it. Your gorjus and have your whole life ahead of you.
If there is a god, i hope some sort of intervention shows itself.
Hi Sweety ^^
Live your last 40 days happy and with love. Dont be afraid when the day comes. If you change your mind for some reason I will be there to blow it off. You cant even guess who I am.
do you have anything I can buy from you?
... because that would prove this is all an exploitative scam. I don't believe you are going to kill yourself, because depressed people work super hard making such a nice website, adding to it every day, and then offering chances of sex with random people on the internet all while posting pictures of yourself and your cleavage. so go ahead and sell me something, I dare you.
god your site is such bullshit, your not going to kill yourself and anyone who reads this should look at the video on "77 days left" and try to tell me that face is not totally faking.
There's no afterlife, this one's the only one you have. If this is how you want to spend it, it's your choice. But if you've never experienced real *true* love, then...well, I pity you. I'm sure you're going to claim true love is hackneyed BS developed by De Beers and Hollywood, but so what? I believe in it, and it's definitely worth living for and probably worth dying for.
mmm... i don't even care if you live or die, but, your asking for answers that no one has, i mean... tell me a real reason (a valid reason) to suicide. You don't even like to cut your self. so, do you think it won't hurt when you suicide?, don't be so coward, and, why a count down if you're gonna do it just do it, you might day when you're sleeping or eating or something. It's simple if you want answers use you're fucken live to find them, what if there's just pain after live, or there's nothing. I can't understand, if you're alive you can get late, share time with friends,make out, read your favorite book, eat tacos, love someone (aimer quelqun), kiss someone, be a mom, listen to your favorite song. well i guess that's not enough.
I personally don't know what to say, even though I have a strong desire to say something. After seeing in my tours, children fighting, struggling to survive, working so hard in inhumane conditions, and after suffering so much myself, I would have thought I would have been plagued by apathy. But it isn't the case. I have a huge respect for life, and the struggle to remain alive. And personally, those who drag on about their suicide, who have this countdown, such as you, are just whiners who are spoiled in life, who haven't actually lived.
Don't be annoyed by those who are saying god this and god that. Ignore them. Let me tell you something. To me, from all the hell I have seen, you are the most annoying, most pathetic shit. There is always worse pain than yours, and all you are doing is advertising your minuscule pain to get the attention. Well I say, grow up, live your life. travel, see the world. Life is a gift by chance, you are so lucky to be alive, living as you are.
If you do commit suicide, I will look down upon you as this spoiled brat who did such a stupid thing, kinda like those Columbine HighSchool kids, only you'll be doing it to yourself, not caring about how your little sister will feel.
If you are to really kill yourself, you'll be nothing more than a selfish waste. And you'll miss the whole point in life, that it's not about you, but everyone around you. Stop thinking about yourself and think for those who care for you.
Trust me, life has a lot more pain than you could possibly imagine, and those that have been through that pain, like the children of Darfur, of Afghanistan (which I have both seen and lived with) would just... arrr you don't even know...
Tania is an attention whore. I really wanna see her kill herself, but alas she doesn't have the guts. It's gonna be something like "one wise person made me change my mind" or something.
look, this has got to stop.. great, so you decided to end it all and you don't care what another soul thinks or feels.. you just put up a blog about it so that all people will be invited to come, regardless of how it affects others ?? you are not even thinking, let alone the disrespect you have for other peoples who, whether by default or intent, You Are choosing to affect this way.. ffs, come on, what is the problem? have you been so deprived of making your own decisions in life that you now must feel compensated for it? i bet it's why you chose suicide.. because that's the ownly decision you could fucking ever make on your own. my best guess is that you need people (hence, blog) telling you what a waste of life you are, just so you don't give up on yourself.. because you are so weak, you cannot think for yourself, and i bet you don't lock up your blog like the way the real Tianya did it on her myspace.. she had the courage to fly down 40 steps after failing to o.d. the 1st time around.. how bout you, you still undecided on that whole bit?
It's all on her face.. she's a slut and this whole blog is just about getting her attention.
Showing off her bust for a crazy self-proclaimed pro-gamer (even if it is all a farce) is something only finished whores will do.
i cry for you, tania....
that is all, just my tears
not like they mean a fuck
I love what you're doing. You're brainwashing the whole internet to believe something which is universally unable to be proven true or false. You're forcing confusion upon a large mass of people and they keep begging for more from you. I love you for this and I think it's a great form of art. The disruption of the human mind.
Wether you're going to do it or not. Great job.
cry for attention
Please do it live on stickam.
Become an Hero, FGJ!
she'll never be ready for this shit, cause when it all goes down something will def. start to hold her back, be it fear, love, or the overall anguish of Doing the Deed. I detect nothing but fear, in this one
When you are dead, you sense nothing. You're fucked pretty much, there is no heaven, i hope you aren't thinking about going there.
btw, what's chirens opinion on this?
Buggy,
why she haff to mix my Politics all up with my Porns?
buzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!
edit, i see this is an anti-suicide campaign. lol...
don't worry people, the bitch will be back.
When your dog dies in that way you are of course responsible and is a very good thing to admit it improving our responsibility levels as it makes us better persons.
Of course its very sad (I had lost a little one too years ago). Cheer up 4 your sister.
Suicide song 4 today:
- Pixies:
Monkey goes to heaven.
Sincerely Yours,
40.001 Admirer,
NoReplyBox
If you spent more than two seconds on the website before posting to flame, you'd find the following...
"This website is an anti-'suicide culture' campaign aimed at a disturbing internet trend that is currently gaining momentum: blogging about committing suicide."
you must really love yourself to to post you're gonna kill yourself, if you were serious you'd do it in private not blog it on the net so these weirdo's that spend their life in front of a computer.. the 'neo' wannabe's etc that think they're in the matrix that actually believe you or care can say 'oh don't do it, don't do it. lifes great!' cause they're just as thick!
for the rest of us that are out living real lives, being with loved ones, following our ambitions/dreams, seeing amazing things in the world that have even heard of you and this crap laugh and think your nothing but a dumb attention seeker.. is this something to do with how you were raised or something, daddy not give you enough attention :(
and using your breasts to compensate for your face/personality majority of the time is pathetic. you lack all carisma on camera and anyone can blog... but even your blogs lack anything interesting.
what makes you think people want to know or care?
and when you don't do it, all people will say if they see you and remember you which is unlikely is 'there's that dick that said she was gonna kill herself.. ha... how embarrassing!'
and just staying logged out of your accounts doesn't count. people want proof!
is this world that bad that you can stand to live anymore, just think once you kill yourself theres not turning back think of the ppl you are leaving behind, i guess thats why we were given free will its up for you to chose ,
She's not actually going to kill her self, its all a big scam, its a big hoax
need ride to hollywood?
We all know you're not going to do this, and your posts reflect your fakeness, as crazy things keep "surprisingly" happening to you making it harder and harder to go through with it. In the end you'll make a post about how you've "discovered the meaning of life" and everyone will be all AWWWW.... *snore*
what about just kill yourself now?
if i guess right just just after antention... why share ur suicide with the whole world. just cut your pulse.
oh my god a online diary about sum1 who wants to make suicide.
btw i like your videos ur HOT!
-Svup
How are you gonna kill yourself exactly?
If you want to make sure you die the first time you can do it like this guy:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=aCXmYMPEAlc
Your so selfish, thing about someone other than yourself for a change...... Your family for instance.....
And as for your sister, your giving her a bad life aswell just by killing yourself.....
And making it public, that's total bulshit.....
Get a grip.....
Fast....
chill people
read the link 'suicide isn't sexy'
Has anyone actually clicked on the "suicide isn't sexy" link all the way on the right. It says that this is just an awareness thing. Obviously she isnt going to kill herself. This is SATIRE!!! Jonathan Swift anyone? Im not trying to be a jackass, im just saying that people should put down the lube, stop jacking off to her pictures, and rationally think about the blatant statement she is making against the glorification of suicide on the internet!
sigh i totally did not know this was fictional made for the purpose of changing suicidal teens descions
i GUARANTEE you, you WILL DEFINATELY regret killing yourself after your soul leaves your body. have fun.
i feel the same way as one of the anonymous guy's but instead coem to me and fuck with me instead you'll make me happy and you will have a good time before you kill yourself :P
if anything, i am jealous that she can make a decision so confidently and not be shaken from it. may all of your remaining days be fulfilled and joyful.
Joseph
Hahaha.. Ahh.. It's too funny. Have you told Athene or whatever his name this?
This is all one big lie. One does not explain in less the 60 words why one would end it's life. One would not be vain if one would end life as the picture would show. There is no Tania, there will not be a suicide by this illusive Tania, this is work of some organisation trying too fool people. For the greater good of there advertisement.
I just can't manage people like, feeling sorry for them selfe. Stop with this stupid shit, and deal with your life. Suicide is somthing selfish and pathetic. Really, move on and think what your life can offer insteed. Everything can get better, just if you deal with it. And somehow I feel that this blog is some fake shit, otherwise. I really feel sorry for you, looser. That's what you are. And that's everything I had to say.
live for athene? a person who has no life? wow haha a no life poser... its sad to watch him... i ws laughing at his ass the whole time.... dont live for someone who sits home all day playing games and waisting money on it btw his motto sucks
lol this post was so corny.. come on dude
Interesting, just noticed the Suicide isn't sexy link on the right side... moving along now :/
I wish u'd just cut to the chase and get this over with. Ur wasting my web space. I mean really ur dead so who cares...
Truly can't w8 to see an Athene movie abouth how you killed yourslef you bitch. You got that shit?
Drug addict tard whit a girl who dosn't deserv to live sinc I lost 3 of my relatives in last 1 year I can tell you they would deserv life more then you.
Live and let die.
btw plz make a video out of how you die and tell Athene to upload it ok thnx
Well, I dunno...after reading your site and whatever...It made my stomach churn....and when you do kill yourself, I don't know why, I'm going to feel very guilty...So...I decided that I'm going to chat with you...if that's okay with you...I mean, I know you're not going to stop...But, I'll just feel less guilty I at least tried to stop you, you know? Bah, but you wont want to talk to a 15 year old, aye?
Katamariness@hotmail.com
"Why I am doing this:"
"This is my decision as it is only mine to make."
Not a reason.
"I honestly do not care about other people's feelings or opinions on this matter."
Also, not a reason.
"There are many others online who are now doing this very same thing because it seems that I’ve set the trend for internet suicides, but I take no responsibility for this whatsoever."
Still not a reason. Probably a con, actually.
"I feel life has no greater purpose."
No greater purpose than nothing? You won't gain anything by comitting suicide. At the very least, you could, by living with the bare minimum, give everything else you can muster to charity. That would probably be better for the world than you dying.
"We have no great war in our generation,"
... Until Iraq and the war on terror and the impending war with North Korea. Don't quote Fight Club for something that's become wrong since it came out.
"no great depression,"
There's a recession floating about right now. Just wait a bit.
"our great war is a war of the spirit,"
And you are just going to give up the war? Just sit down and aquiesce to your inability to find purpose? Wow, you need to read Hamlet. How did you survive 25 years of life without reading Hamlet? You clearly haven't read it yet. Or if you did, you didn't pay attention. Please, read it, or reread it. It's about a lot more than suicide... But it is, in part, about suicide. Even if it doesn't change your mind, it'll help you on your journey.
"and our great depression is our lives."
Only if you let it be. There's plenty of fun stuff to do. All you have to do is go do it.
"So, if I feel like saying "fuck it all", why can't I?"
Nobody is saying you can't. But it's a real wuss move.
"In this ‘last days’ diary of mine, you can read all about how I end my life in style, for example: you’ll find me quoting movies like Se7en and Fight Club and posting videos of which dress I might wear when I’ll do the deed. This way, I hope to set some standards for the internet suicide culture."
So... Your goal by committing suicide this way is to help other people commit suicide in this way? That doesn't sound like a great reason.
Se7en and Fight Club are great movies, though. There's another Fincher/Pitt movie coming out at the end of the year - "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button". Too bad you'll be missing it.
Whatever. Why don't you just spend the next 40 days trying to blow up some credit card company buildings?
lol.... are you really going to kill yourself or is this just a theme of the blog?
God bless you.
I bet you are loving this...
If any of her blogs are influenced, or rather inspired by much of the feedback she gets from here, then it would be obvious why her creativity is lacking spirit as of late, people. It's as though she doesn't even want to blog at all these days. Please, Tania. Come on back to me...
i miss how sexy exaggerated stupid suicide can be :'-(
Seriously, me, you, your place...quick shag, then you can kill yourself, you should go after you make people happy.. like moi..your like the fittest girl alive, whats the point of not using your last days to make everyone happy eh?
I think this whole thing is just one big hoax.
But if it's not then please get some help instead of committing suicide and leave the people who love you behind... especially your sister and parents.
Ah I see it now (suicide is not sexy button) it is an innitiative of the nee party (Political party in Belgium) against the suicide culture.
Good cause though :)
Seriously, me, you, your place...quick shag, then you can kill yourself, you should go after you make people happy.. like moi..your like the fittest girl alive, whats the point of not using your last days to make everyone happy eh?
people realy trying to you feel better, LOL
Hey i got an idea. Why don't you travel the world before you die and if you happen to come to Georgia USA, then i would like to lose my virginity to you.
i dont know is this page real or is it a fake??? I cant imagine that somebody can do this!!! You should try to change your life if you doesnt like it and dont waste your time to think about your suicide.
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