Thursday, March 20, 2008

47 days left...

Okay, I don't know what I did but I just got a huge mail spike.

I think I received like twice as many mails as I usually get per day, and I have no idea where they all came from. I really don't have the time to answer or even read them all to so huge apologies to everyone who mailed me and didn't get a reply, I just don't know what happened here, I'm drowning in mails!

I did quickly skim the topics and senders to see if there's anything I really shouldn't be missing, and I managed to filter out another mail from the "mysterious celebrity" I had drinks with a while ago, he just wanted to know how I was doing; I actually think he wants to go out with me again but doesn't dare to ask, so if you're reading this (you know who you are, you), just ask! :p

Also, I received a mail from a pornography director who apparently took my comment about acting in a porn movie without the grain of salt I gave it away with. He said that he would pay a ridiculous amount of money to have me as a star in his new porn movie, and I would of course have a say in how far I wanted to go in it (soft porn, hard porn, and all variations of the latter).

I don't know if I should be flattered, intrigued, or repelled. ^^

65 comments:

Anonymous said...

why the hell would you want to die when so many unwilling people lose their lives on a daily basis? too bad there isn't a way to trade your life for some of my lost friends and loved ones, ingrate.

Anonymous said...

Damn, thats more email than I've ever received. Suicide makes you very popular if your hot I guess. And go with the porn, just nothing too disturbing.

Anonymous said...

Read "Duma Key" by Stephen King before you go...and also "How To Talk To A Widower" by Jonathan Tropper...You cant die without reading those

Anonymous said...

I just read the "Why I Am Doing This" part of your website, and I think you have missed the point.

You have the power to create any worldview that you want; you have chosen "fuck it all"...

Obviously, with a website up and running, either;
A)This is fake. There are people helping you launch the website, and there is some ulterior motive; perhaps a movie...
...actually, I don't think there is another possibility. I mean, if this were real, wouldn't you be under supervision of some sort? Wouldn't someone call the cops? Wouldn't they call your mom? I read a few entries, and it said you haven't told your mom...
very dubious indeed. I mean, how does one young, possibly depressed person launch a website, create a blog, videos, respond to messages, while working, dating, and maintain the whole operation without anyone being the wiser? I'm gonna look into this...

Anonymous said...

Okay, yeah it's fake. sorry to drop the bomb but it's an anti-suicide deal... almost had me convinced. It does look awfully clean and polished for one person...

Anonymous said...

Hi, it is my understanding that you live in Belgium. I am curious what Belgium people are like. I work at a factory in America and our factory manager is Belgium. He curses all the time and he told me that's how they speak to each other in Belgium. He said it's effective because it lets the other person know exactly where you stand (he hates it when I give him a maybe... or a I'm not sure... answer). Anyhow I'm curious what your perspective is on it. Could you post a bit about Belgium culture and social idioms in your next blog? Oh and I agree with you guys that suicide blogging is ridiculous. Keep up the funny stuff (you and Athene).

Anonymous said...

well if this is for real you should watch all yogameditation's vids on youtube and also DattatreyaSivaBaba's
vids and also she should know that she can have anything she want

Anonymous said...

Would be great to see u in a porn movie.
U are fuckin sexxxy :P

Anonymous said...

i don't know if this is true or how much this is going to help.. but i have to do something

please don't commit suicide.. sure sometimes you can't find meaning to life.. but i guess you live on in hope of finding it one day..

take care.

Anonymous said...

What would be so wrong about doing a porn movie? I know if these were my last days something like that would definately cross my mind. I say go for gold.

Anonymous said...

I haven't read much of your blog.

Have you considered going to a doctor?

Unknown said...

Don't worry people, this is fake. The real psychology of being suicidal to end it all has nothing to do with making a fashion trend out of the ordeal - this for cheap attention/fame and is pretty shameful IMO.

Anonymous said...

Serious Spiritual Pursuit?

Is this for real? Have you really explored the meaning of life before you die? I think NOT! Try some Buddhism (yoga, meditate). It will teach you how to find the truth of life and death.

Not a cliche, or try to convert anyone. It doesnot ask you to believe anything upfront, you will start learning one step a time. Someone put their whole life for the pursuit. Take sometime to find out. If you are interested, I will be glad to show the way.

Anonymous said...

I'll put your video on redtube, pornotube, and youporn for you after you die.

Anonymous said...

Whether or not this blog likens itself to your definition of "authenticity" or somehow jives with a verse in your book of SHAME, I still think it's pretty cool that we get to come here and see 'Tania' acting it all out...all suspected ulterior motives aside (I love how hOt the IP project looks, btw!) Now I'll admit the whole "fictitious" celebrity thing is a bit cracked because: if this were real, we could at least speculate on whooooo the celebrity might be! Being that it's not, however, I guess we'll just have to assume it's Athene

Anonymous said...

tania you are way too gorgeous for a porno my love, porn is for girls who have nothing, and my dear you have everything lol YOU PWN !!!! u know how long i been lookin for a girl who pwns at games!!! lol im a good lookin cat and i respect women ! and u sweeet heart are gorgeous!! lol next time ur in america call me lol keep up the blog ! you, athene, furious, and wow are the few things that make me smile in life! so thank u, thank u and athene for all the great clips and blogs!

Anonymous said...

Anyone ever read the book Perfume?

I can already see the potential of this thing going out with a (gang) bang.....

Anonymous said...

too much sexy, sexy!

not enuff reasons y u dunt wanna live thru it all :-/

Anonymous said...

I spend my time thinking about you, not necessarily wanting to know you, but just being fascinated by what you do.

Anonymous said...

DO POARN. it is DOPE and grab some AIDS while you're at it

Anonymous said...

God, it's as though I have just walked into a public restroom stall. I remember now which stall it was, in particular.. it was the one I shot my brains out in

You people refract light like shattered prisms. Now.. what would it be to make you feel better.. should you make another post? (now that I'm here)

Anonymous said...

nobody thinks you're 100% sexy

Anonymous said...

nobody thinks you should die

Anonymous said...

nobody thinks suicide is sexy! :P

Anonymous said...

dus ur boyfrend know about this?!i just have 2 words to say "just don't"

Anonymous said...

who said the celebrity is fictitious? just because the blog isn't real doesn't mean real world people don't see it! yeah it does suck that we'll never know. but why does does it matter, really? this is the kind of lowly-scripted shit you just gotta let play out in your head.

Anonymous said...

The blond-haired afghani gives me head nightly, ya'll. I'm telling you, the shit is sweet! A shot out to t'Tangy...THX!bro

I wish Tania had more time for more blogging though. She obviously has a busy schedule. I'm just a little concerned. Will the last blog be like, "I don't really have much to say, so I'm just gonna off myself before I fall asleep here...have a link to some robot sex for thought."

Naaaaahh!!
I'm just playing, ya'll
-listening to- Oh my dear (I think I'm falling in love) by Ween.

-favorite line- "did i tell you i want more than what you're really made of..."

Anonymous said...

Boognish Saves.

Anonymous said...

Tania

The Lord works in mysterious ways
you use birth control right?

GASP!

Anonymous said...

*SUICIDAL PREGGERS*

oh- ouch.

Anonymous said...

"I don't know if I should be flattered, intrigued, or repelled."

You should feel flattered if you really think pornography would pay you a compliment, intrigued if you are a repressed whore, and repelled if there's any shred of dignity you feel like hanging onto.

It's like you're feeling a mixture of all three. But just out of curiosity, what would your porn name be?

Anonymous said...

"Angel Juggs"

Anonymous said...

Interaction...I like that. Keep it rollin' for The Lord!

Anonymous said...

Those sweet tits are like two big ol' scoops of heaven. Am I right? I want to go there when I die.

Anonymous said...

I believe they have the power to heal! YAYYESS!!

Anonymous said...

and I have the ability to "feel"

Coincidence? I don't think so!

(God, I'm fucking high)

Anonymous said...

DON'T DO DRUGS! The Lord has always been a tad resentful of the day Jesus ran around doing magic on all the vegetation.

Anonymous said...

umm..anybody else noticed that the girl in that porno picture thingy has a nipple like on the top of her boob?

Anonymous said...

I don't know if this is real, but if you write all this for fun you are a shameless bitch. On of my best friends killed hisself and i really miss him ... That's not funny... If it is real, I can understand you and you should do what YOU think is right!

47 days to go... Have a good time...

Anonymous said...

I dont understand why people are taking this so seriously, its a MOCKERY of a real person who actually did this, ffs!

Anonymous said...

http://tinyurl.com/2kfg8z

Suicide isn't sexy.

This website is an anti-'suicide culture' campaign aimed at a disturbing internet trend that is currently gaining momentum: blogging about committing suicide.

Suicide blogger '90 Day Jane' recently caught a lot of viewer's [sic] attention. She started blogging anonymously about her last 90 days in a similar way as demonstrated on our site. Even though the '90 Day Jane' blog turned out to be fiction and was recently removed, it has inspired a wave of suicide-blogging. Based on the '90 Day Jane' blog, Tania's fictional blog exaggerates certain aspects to offer a more critical look at this disturbing trend.

This is a campaign against the currently growing suicide culture that glorifies the act and unintentionally inspires others to do the same. It's a campaign for awareness, it's a campaign to both confront and reach out to those who need help.

This campaign is an I Power initiative from the same group of people that formed the NEE party which received international fame for its satirical '40,000 blowjobs' campaign.

Read about I Power and how this campaign is saving lives here.

Anonymous said...

Amen!

AhLuNz said...

If u die,the world less 1 pretty girl. Why u need to die? U are sexy,pretty,all perfect to u.. the world still got many things to give u to do and u are too early to die and not play enuff..

Anonymous said...

omg get this overwith and kill yourself today, you're no good to this world of you're just gonna die you bastard

Anonymous said...

This is dumb. We all know she isn't going to kill herself.

Anonymous said...

don't do it
life is lame thats right , but its a test
if you kill yourself , you will fail the test and taste the real pain in hell

and what you think your life is pain, you still have you family and you sister whom might do the same if you suicide .
its your life right , but you know how this will affect others (your sister) and if you do that you will harm her in different way , and if you are saying you are not , then you are ignorant
you haven't lost yet , you can still enjoy all of it
people in Iraq lives in pain and misery every single day , and they lost their friends , sons , parents and their families and they still work in making life better place

you live in good condition , you have all the life in front of you.

imagine living in the 3rd world countries , it sucks there

Anonymous said...

the FUNNY thing its that you want to be free but your mind is so conditioned that u will kill urself! YOU ARE FEARED about life! and fear is weakness! think about it

frez from italy

Anonymous said...

people and their silly, bad habits lol whuddaya gunna dooooooooooo?

this may sound insane, but my love life is a convoluted disgrace. can i just pretend to love you instead?

Anonymous said...

nobody loves ME!

Anonymous said...

The Lord loves you, UhYay-YesUh!

The Lord is gawna sava you, UhYay-YesUh!

The Lord put you here to spread your God-given seed of love, my man! UhYay-YesUh!!!

Careful not to mess the carpets, tho. We gotta funeral comin' in in a few weeks.

Anonymous said...

nobody knows how to clear a room like you! heheheheheheh

Anonymous said...

I WANT YOU TANYA

Anonymous said...

nobody can have her ;)


anybody knows that.

Anonymous said...

YUP

Anonymous said...

I WANT YOU TANYA--READ MY EMAIL--"I WANT YOU TANYA"--IT WILL EXPLAIN EVERYTHING YES I HAVE VERY BAD EYES BECUASE OF GLAUCOMA--HENCE CAPS. I AM SORRY THAT IT IS 1000 WORDS BUT THAT IS BECAUSE I LIKE TO GIVE MYSLEF ULTAMITE GOALS IN LIFE--I AM 70 YRS--AND YOU HELPED ME WITH E.D.--THE EMAIL WILL EXPLAIN EVERYTHING--AND MORE--ENJOY THE READ IT WILL MAKE YOUR HOLE DAY

Anonymous said...

nobody told him the caps lock doesn't actually make the letters bigger on the keys, but...

Anonymous said...

Hi lady,

Sometimes a movie start is just a temporary clown.

Refuse.

Today's suicide song:

- Rolling Stones:

You can't always get what you want.

Sincerely Yours,

40.001 Admirer,

NoReplyBox

Anonymous said...

Before you die you should make some porn, you can get rich try crazy stuff and then kill yourself.
yea thats what i would do if im a hot chick.

Anonymous said...

stay hapy in this world,if you are bad you are not belong in this world.maldita...

Anonymous said...

good and good

Anonymous said...

am i really gonna get some pussy

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