Monday, March 31, 2008

36 days left...

So, someone sent me this 'interesting' picture.

In other news, my life sucks.

Those were the headlines for today. Stay tuned for the weather.
Rain. Rain. Rain. Rain.

Oh, and I got some more e-mails from people who want to help me, one guy said that anyone who is thinking about suicide should read this website first:
http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/spagebw.htm

It's well written and it's definitely intelligent, so if you're a suicidal person reading this, check it out and maybe it'll be inspiring for you. He asked me to put it in my blog so there I did.

44 comments:

Anonymous said...

That picture made me very angry, i really hope that picture didn't make you sad.
Just ignore those who write mean things and send such things.

Be strong because you have my and many other's support!!!

Anonymous said...

At above poster, congrats, you just encouraged a fictional character to commit suicide.

Unknown said...

if you were a man, only gays would want to keep you alive, besides, i think that, the less the people in the world, the more beefits, you are like an animal who does not want to evolve, neither fight for living, so get out the way...beep beep..you are spending air, food, clothes..don't use electric energy, stop spending money, you don't want to live,then stop breathing now

Unknown said...

-LIFE HAS TO BE MEANINGLESS,THAT'S WHAT FREEDOM REQUIRES
-LIVE YOUR MYSTERIOUS LIFE,DON'T SOLVE IT LIKE MAJORITIES
-I REALLY LOVE YOU (OR TO THE PERFECTLY CONCEIVED TANIA)

Anonymous said...

hay tania hi.
my name is stefano from italy.thanks to tag i got to see your site address after watching the clip of you and your fellow ipower members but befor i continue talking to you i feel i have to leave my compliments to you guys because if i an italian was able to see this ipower clip then that guy that said ipower would flop the i guess his wrong.the ipower team makes loads of sense.compliments to the founder who i guess wont have gone any where with out you and the others so compliments you guys have taking the first step in making the world a better place and as for you in particular being that i as a person iv gone through thick and thin ,been to hell and back my advice to you would be to take every disappointment as a blessing and leave your life happily .life has its ups and down and as your i power founder said in theory life is like a bitch how she treats you depends on how you control her so your in control and well i dont really think you need my advice you already a happy girl.ciao bella a dopo qesto e il mio indirizzo.milano ,italia.........stephykamzt @yahoo.good night buona notte bella

Anonymous said...

Hey, i just found your blog and ive just got to say...wow

it took me a while to decide whether or not it was a joke or for real, and it really did hit me how much youve committed to this

i think that a few months ago i would have tried to convince you not too...but ive had my mind opened so much in such a short period of time

im sorry your life's so bad, but hopefully in a month you can find some peace

truly,
jordan

Anonymous said...

hi tania,

first of all i like the inspiration that you give with your idea of suicide,,

you only look so sad for such a nice looking girl :S

aahwel.. my question: why the hell did you posted that link?? :L even i get depressed by reading it :L

hope you enjoy your last days,,,
bye,

Anonymous said...

i just read some of your blog and i am relieved to find that it is a piece of fiction to try and stop people from committing suicide.

i did find it disturbing to read so you can imagine the relief :D

i hope this blog helps.

Anonymous said...

also, what is going to happen on zero hour?

Anonymous said...

look, the whole suicidal thing really isnt what this blog shit is about. If you hated your life so much you wouldnt publicize the fact that your ending it. the fact that you even let people comment on your daily "moods" shows that you care about what people think. I dont know if this is some attention stunt or some stupid shit like that but seriously? The stuff you wrote on day 37? Are you really that dumb or are you just TRYING to get people to say shit to you. Wow. You should just kill yourself now. And the "im the victim here" at the end of 37. The victim of what? All i can see that is tormenting you is yourself, your own ego, your own immaturity, and you should get over yourself. You could probably get a lot farther than 36 days if you even put in a half-ass effort. If anything i said made sense to you email me at karava401@yahoo.com because seriously, i dont get what this whole thing is about.

Anonymous said...

So you think you've sufered enough to take away your life? I can see by your eyes that you haven't!.
I mean c'mon, everyone know that life sucks!. Try to suffer from the moment before being born until you die, being hated by your parents and being tried to get killed by them countless times!!! pleople telling you ( even your own family) that you're a mistake in this world, and you knowing that all that it's true. People are only born with a purpouse, suffer until they die, because no matter how much you think you're happy... at the end you just suffer. Die if you want to. But do it because you have nothing else to do in this world... not because your life sucks. Because life sucks no matter what. If you're gonna kill yourself. shout my name: Shadow.
And then i'll meet you in the so called "other world"

Anonymous said...

Chaque vie a un but si on se donne la peine de le chercher.

Anonymous said...

I hope you beat your depression

Anonymous said...

hey cookie, plz donut die. i ate to see u dis weigh. i bagel of u..donut do it. can chew cake de habit of wutz got u filling dis weigh? ice cream 2 u..donut do it. icing 2 u..donut do it. chews life, chews life. u butternut do it..i donut want chew to die..A BED..ick.

Anonymous said...

Hi Lady,

Don't loose your head,

Suicide song 4 today:

- Arctic monkeys

BrainStorm



Sincerely Yours,

40.001 Admirer,

NoReplyBox

Anonymous said...

come on! die already! people like you only waste precious space and oxygen! wahahaha lol greet malmsteen for me!

Anonymous said...

Welcome to the spamtrain
We are anonymous
We do not forgive
We do not forget

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Anonymous said...

If this is then, and that was now... Well, I guess you could say we made a moment out of it.

Unknown said...

Tania Derveaux isn't this users name ;D
That's the Belgian woman that was running for office and giving blowjobs as an incentive to vote for her

Anonymous said...

Your right this is your choice & no one can deviate you from this course if its is what you truly want. I thought it was what I truly wanted - but I was wrong. I took a specific combination of pills to stop my heart dead - but obviously I didn't. I was found & hospitalised some 12 hours after the overdose - my doctors have said that I should have died & they can't explain why I didn't. Noone knows the pain u are in but some do understand why you have chosen this road. Unlike some others I'm not going to try to talk you out of your choice - but if you like I will post to you each day you have left - just a voice that knows what darkness is truly like. What I thought was the end of my journey was 14 months ago - & today I'm glad I'm still alive.

Kane said...

What can I say... I read your blog... and I am sure that you are indeed crazy... have fun on your last days on this planet. Buh`bye

Anonymous said...

I think that you are too arrogant and your ego is too big. I can't feel bad for you. There are people who kill themselves and that's how it will always be. The numbers might change, but people will always kill themselves. It's just that, i don't think that you don't have a real reason. And just killing yourself without a major reason is wrong and unfair to the people around you. I really would like you to reconsider the killing thought. If that of course isn't another joke from the IPower community. I really hope that you can and will read my comment and i hope that you will somehow respond to it, for i'm really worried. (Shit, i guess i really would feel bad if you would kill yourself) That means actually i'm a real stranger to you and can still care. So if your reason might be because someoone said, or did something bad to you- forget it. Because a lot of people out there are able and willing to care for you. Don't let us down Tanya and keep it strong.

Anonymous said...

I think that you are too arrogant and your ego is too big. I can't feel bad for you. There are people who kill themselves and that's how it will always be. The numbers might change, but people will always kill themselves. It's just that, i don't think that you don't have a real reason. And just killing yourself without a major reason is wrong and unfair to the people around you. I really would like you to reconsider the killing thought. If that of course isn't another joke from the IPower community. I really hope that you can and will read my comment and i hope that you will somehow respond to it, for i'm really worried. (Shit, i guess i really would feel bad if you would kill yourself) That means actually i'm a real stranger to you and can still care. So if your reason might be because someoone said, or did something bad to you- forget it. Because a lot of people out there are able and willing to care for you. Don't let us down Tanya and keep it strong.

Anonymous said...

Well, I'm glad you're not really doing this. I'm not going to even pretend to know you, because all I've seen are some YouTube videos and this blog, but I know you deserve better than the environment you're in and people you're with. I'm not putting anyone down, I just would like to see you with someone who would treat you like a woman should be treated...with respect, loyalty and love.

Anonymous said...

I found some interesting numbers about suicide:
http://www.suicidereferencelibrary.com/test4~id~1446.php
* 4.1 male completions for each female completion
* 3 female attempts for every male attempt
* 25 attempts for every completion for nation. 100-200:1 for young, and 4:1 for elderly
According to these stats, we don’t really need to worry about you actually killing yourself. From these numbers, we can calculate that approximately only 1 in 94 female attempts is successful. Even if you do try to kill yourself, you’ll most likely fuck it up and live. This website is a pretty lame cry for help.

Anonymous said...

u must have a some hardcore action video babe ;)

Anonymous said...

my name is Alexander, i gonna sent to you a e-mail hey sugar baby kiss from a latino

Anonymous said...

Hahahahahaahahaha my god, do I feel the smell of a attentionwhore? Yes I do. Really pathetic. Well, thanks for giving me a good laugh :)

Anonymous said...

how do you finish your (great) movie "IP", when you kill yourself? Is this some kind of PR for your Movie? I know, that you guys used explicit or crazy titels and actions for getting the people listening to you...
Anyway, this suicide thing stands against all the other things you are doing and in what (I think)you are believing in. (I`m talking about I Power and the three principals)

Anonymous said...

tania you dont wanna die, because you you you tania you want to live this the reason for die you reason is live...


Alexander

Anonymous said...

lol this is all a publiclicty stunt im just amazed how no one has even come to that conclusion lul

- said...

DON'T DO IT!
live your life FFS! You only got one chance to live, way waste it?
THINK BEFORE ACTING!

but i can't decide what you are going to do,
it's not my problem if you does something stupid.

Anonymous said...

lol just go and die plx, why the countdown?

Anonymous said...

What happened to the talented, intelligent film maker/stident that inspired people around the world(via the internet) to think outside the box politically, sexually, and intellectually. Although it is pretty funny that you appear so self important that faux suicidal depression is the moniker that you are choosing to wear. If you even remotely felt that way, you would already be dead. If this were acurate there would have been no 90 day warning, you would have done it immediately. So, whats the underlying reason for this charade? It certainly doesn't stem from your real mental state.

Bigggbry

Anonymous said...

Are you retarded

Anonymous said...

hey erm... i cant say wat is hapnin here is a positive thing but its interesting

if u have msn or something maybe i could talk to ya bout it?

id love to no why ur doin this coz u seem so happy with ur friends or whoever they are on those videos

only jus discovered this today :)

x george tyson x

george_forman_grills@hotmail.com

Anonymous said...

life is weird, we circle around a ball of fire that floats in space in a galaxy void with life... and as far as we know, nothing happens when we die. life seems like some sort of fluke, everything we do is in vain coz there is no afterlife. what ur doing is completely normal and i totally support ur decision, however, i wish u didnt die. ur pretty and as a strange creature of a universe filled with strange things, it will be a shame to waste such a wonderful personality and beautiful body.

so as far as all the other ppl suffering in this world, its too bad but nothing is going to change that. they're gonna die one day too and that life they had (whether they're underage children forced into the sex industry, or some staving parent who lost their child) r gonna have that one life and that will be that. life is unfair and im looking forward to a eternity of nothingness. god speed lol

Anonymous said...

you are a very beautiful girl tania, don't do this. You deserve a happy life and people who cares for you. Tania be strong and please talk to someone who has experiences from this. you are beautiful, don't let anyone take that away from you with bad words. You deserve a place on the earth.
Love/ me