Saturday, March 29, 2008

38 days left...

I can't really describe my mood very well today, at least not better than this piece of lyrics from the Slipknot song People = Shit:

Come on down and see the idiot right here
Too fucked to beg and not afraid to care
What's the matter with calamity anyway?
Right? Get the fuck outta my face
Understand that I can't feel anything
It isn't like I wanna sift through the decay
I feel like a wound, like I've got a fuckin'
Gun against my head - You live when I'm dead

One more time, motherfucker

Everybody hates me now, so fuck it
Blood's on my face and my hands, and I
Don't know why. I'm not afraid to cry
But that's none of your business
Whose life is it? Get it? See it? Feel it? Eat it?
Turn it around so I can spit in its face
I wanna leave without a trace

Don't ask.

21 comments:

Anonymous said...

wish it was a vid insted-

you, staring into camera

(that song in the background)

me going, DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM.

Anonymous said...

If your slipknot culture makes you feel this way, it is a social evolution to make you extinct.

If you preach religion and life, you will feel more inclined to live and pass on your seed.

I'm an athiest, scientist and philosopher that was brought up without blind faith. It may be a disadvantage.

Anonymous said...

oh come on. seriously. I just found this blog and project of yours today, and I have this to say.

if you go through with this and kill yourself, you're really fucking insane. if you don't kill yourself, you're just insane. and quite needy of attention either way.

so good luck with that. but don't get me wrong, I'm not your typical internet cynic. I'm actually an optimist. so whatever you do, I hope it makes you happy. whether you're a paid actress or a performance artist or actually suicidal.

take care.

Anonymous said...

Argus, if you bothered to spend more than 5 minutes at the site, you'd have noticed the "Sucide isn't sexy" link. Click that before your next reply.

Anonymous said...

#4. Research King Crimson

Anonymous said...

How have you been able to avoid cops or anyone coming to your house and asking you about this? Aren't there people who can like...report you? Not that I'm saying they should..It's just weird... Also this is very depressing reading about someone who is planning to kill themselves and knowing that you cannot do anything about it.

Anonymous said...

You have the courage to broadcast to the whole world your plan but do you have the courage to tell HIM: http://last-of-iraqis.blogspot.com/2008/03/what-was-under-table-has-been.html

Anonymous said...

How can this blog stop suicide bloggers? Why not write about NOT commit suicide, you make a very good point that it's no reason to live so I think yo will kill more people then save/or stop people.

Anonymous said...

i know this blog is a fake, but it still interests me, i'm the guy who said that I was thinking i would kill myself in a comment a few blog post earlier, I've decided to kill myself but I havent found a way to do it yet, I've thought of a few ways, killing myself by locking myself in my car and inserting a hose from my car exhaust inside the car and sealing it, jumping from a building, even jumping into an active volcano..haha, but I guess theres no such thing as to die gracefully is it?
dying's always bad and gruesome, strangely, I believe in the afterlife and I know I'm gonna go to hell if I do it, now the reason why I'm writing this here is uncertain, even to me.. but reply this here if it interests u, thx

Anonymous said...

I haven't been reading this long (long enough to see the 'Suicide isn't sexy' disclaimer though) You might also note that all of her friends use the *.movielol.org domain for their sites as well as their 'group' site for iPower...if this were real then surely one of them would've already found it and then got her family involved...assuming they care about her of course.

After reading some of the comments on some of the days I have to say that some people need to do more research before they open their mouths. That's in regards to this being a fake as well as other things I've seen.

Example: The videos about Athene and Furius that you will mostly find are not their real persona's. They are satirical videos making fun of WoW players. So don't knock those two guys until you've seen more of their real stuff. (Athene will most-likely be wearing glasses in real videos)

As an additional comment on the slim chance that you do mean it, Tania (and I think it's slim enough to cut paper):

You're an extremely hot woman and it would really be a waste to lose one, especially one with a brain...so many people period just don't have one at all nowadays - just look at some of the other commenters here for example. My suggestion to you would be to try a fresh start (again this is only if this actually is real). I mean a truly fresh start...hell you could come live in the spare bedroom of my home here in the US. Whether or not you want to go all night with the 9" monster and pierced tongue is not compulsory, though would be extremely appreciative and gratifying ;D

Anonymous said...

If your deppressed you should listen to De mysteriis dom santhanas by Mayhem, instead of that emo crap slipknot / mcr/ 3dg or whatever.

Anonymous said...

They truly scare me, those mean masked men.

Unknown said...

please don't fuck more just because you are gonna die,don't cahnge your escence at all, please give the world the oportunity of having such an specie like you,in your purity

Anonymous said...

Listen to this song pleas!!!
Marilyn Manson-Coma black

Unknown said...

you need reasons to laugh, yor laugh is the rare opening of a precious flower, don't find anymore reasons to die, but to laugh...i love you, take some risks...live

Anonymous said...

How are we going to be sure that you are going to make a suicide? You can just stop blog'n when the last day have passed!

Anonymous said...

Go read some on:

http://ipower.movielol.org

Especially the part about "Suicide Blog saves lives"

They flat out tell you that it's fake there :)

Anonymous said...

Hi Lady,

It's nice how music can transmit our feelings,

Cheer up,


Today's Suicide song:

- (Of course: ) Slipknot

People = Shit


Sincerely Yours,

40.001 Admirer,

NoReplyBox

Anonymous said...

Talk about the EMO Bashing Phenomena, tell your friends AtheneWins and I-Power Followers...

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Best Regards

Anonymous said...

slipknot = shit

Anonymous said...

You = shit and so is your taste in music.