Sometimes I wonder how I'm going to keep my readers entertained for so many days before I actually take the plunge. I mean, it's not like something interesting happens every day here and most of my days actually suck, so that's kind of an inspiration killer.
But then again, maybe it's better you guys get bored of my slow paced and utterly boring trip towards the grave, cause if no one reads my blog anymore, maybe I can just get it over with already. That's right, you guys are what's keeping me alive for another 72 days, so pat yourselves on the back for being philanthropic.
In any case, Brad send me flowers today. How cliché is that, right? I told him I didn't want any flowers right now, but that if he really wanted to give me some, he should wait 72 days, and then he could bring me fresh ones every week, lol. He didn't really get it of course.
Call me cruel but I love cracking jokes like that. Like the other day my philosophy professor told me that since I had skipped half of his classes already he wasn't going to allow me to take my final exam. I replied that if he didn't change his mind by May, I would kill myself because of it.
Which is totally funny cause now he'll think it's his fault when I kill myself.
Serves him right.
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Miss Derveaux,
Third post.
Life and family have kept me busy. Those same brought me back with some questions.
You say you are going to commit suicide. How?
Just out of morbid curiosity, I've wondered just what method you've chosen and what environment you intend to set up.
Pragmatic to a fault, that would be a fair description of myself. So, that last half of my question may have the most merit.
Think if you will of what the time frame will be and the location of your demise has to do with the practical considerations of the discovery of your remains. The awkwardness of mortem libidity due to any organ damage and the final resting position. The ambient temperature and its resultant timing of the the evidence of decay and odor.
Some methods have a greater affect than others in the acceleration of rather gruesome details coming to the fore. An example is the purpling/blacking of the head if hanging is chosen. Separation of vertebra and subsequent severing of the head partially or in total too can result.
Poisoning or drug overdose oftens leads to violent nausea and other liquid discharges making one heck of a mess.
More violent methods - gunshot, the all-time favorite of laceration to wrist or other main blood vessel obviously can be equally sticky situations.
All have a great tendency to draw insects and other verming....rats, mice, dogs, vultures....whathaveyou.
Wouldn't do now would it to have it be some weeks undergoing a steady decomposition now would it? Course, regardless, you'll be blissfully unaffected having left the literal mess for others to pick up and clean up.
Or maybe you plan some grandiose way out. A high dive off a medium to tall building, a bridge, a steeple; or heck, rent scenic tour flight and just hop out early before landing. There's always just stepping out in front of a truck, becoming a hood ornament. Or how about a 'perils of Pauline' thing - tie yourself down to a railroad track.
Perhaps you've some traditional methods in mind. A form of Japanese hari-kari/sepuku. Maybe wandering out to the sea and just swimming out until you can go no further. In cold climates - just sitting in the snow and freezing....though, springtime isn't such a good time for that.
How about making it worth it? Volunteer to be a guinea pig for some medical research? Unproven vaccines, control person for a deadly virus? Hmmm, that may have some actual merit.
In short, whatcha thinking of?
Don`t die. Please. Life is beautiful.
i do not think you should kill yourself
that being said, i think that this blog is just a way for you to get attention
this is almost the same thing as those crazy ass kids who kill all those people and then kill themselves
if you are really going to kill yourself and there is nothing that can change your mind, do it with subtle humility
-the righteous lemming
well another senseless post by a senseless bitch... Die already
You know, I'm going to call it right now. You're not going to do it.
Seriously, think about it. If you really felt that life was not worth living, you'd just get it over with. If you're taking 90 days to experience as much of life as you can before killing yourself, then why kill yourself at all? After all, if there are things worth experiencing, then it goes without saying that there are more than you can experience within three months. And if there aren't, then you wouldn't feel the need to drag it out. That you are setting a timetable for suicide is inherently nonsensical.
Addendum to the above:
Well, now I feel kind of stupid, having just discovered the text revealed by clicking the "Suicide Isn't Sexy" image under the profile. I still maintain that having a countdown to suicide for the express purpose of experiencing life is silly.
This somewhat offends me. Suicide's not something to be played at like this.
U should read 'A Long Way Down' by Nick Hornby...good book..
Lol awesome joke! everyone say that you should not do it cuz life is butiful but i think you should do it NOW cuz your so sexy you make me hard and i will fuck your dead body so hard, sexy bitch
Lol awesome joke! everyone say that you should not do it cuz life is butiful but i think you should do it NOW cuz your so sexy you make me hard and i will fuck your dead body so hard, sexy bitch
What is important to remember, even if this is just an "Internet" suicide, is that any nude images you post will live on forever. The ultimate iPower is the ability to captivate the hearts and minds of others for all time. A single afternoon's nude photo session can be your timeless tribute to iPower. Get naked. You have 72 days to undress. We love you. We will miss you. But, with pictures, we will remember you.
I think you should tell Brad that you already have a boyfriend. It doesn't seem fair to string him along unless you want his attention.
1st, about Spiravdaeg comment, nice one (even funny one), Tania, you should publish a pool to question your readers wich one of the clasical (or not) suicide forms would they choose, I not really sure about wich one I'll take actually, but at least your iPower "genius" group will get some curious marketing data (even w. bross partner as they seems to put batman returns ads in this blog)...
So do you want to make this blog useful, do it!
Brad imaginary histories can be read in any blog over there, so this Initiative, and this is only my point of view, should be must oriented to recollect all kind of data about human behaviour with suicide topic and use that data to Really avoid some suicide attemps. (It would be great if you just get one people to not suicide and not the opposite objetive talking too much about Brad..)
Tell to the iPower group before their brains get too toasted with the last videogames and the old drugs and make Something Useful of all this iniciative.
Sincerely Yours,
40.001 Admirer,
NoReplyBox
I.E
Top 10 readers Favorite Suicide favorite songs after 70 blog days and before the final act:
1. xxxx song (group)
2. xxxx song (group)
2...................
My first suggestions:
Beatles:
- Hey Bulldog
- Happiness is a warm gun
- Eleanor Rigby (instrumental)
Sincerely Yours,
40.001 Admirer,
NoReplyBox
I tried to kill myself, but i failed >.<
But the important thing i want to say is: Talk to you'r closest friends about suicide and your plans.. I promose that you will feel much better..
BTW: All ppl that say "haha good joke, bitch why don't you just fuck me now you sexy bitch?" YOU ARE ALL RETARDS AND GET A LIFE!
I don't really give a shit if this is real or not... She's made some great art, and art is always more valuable when the artist is dead. They're probbly just bored of making all these videos, though anyway, i hope you finish IP after you kill yourself.
If u want to die, why u dont ask Nasa to do a 1 way travel to Mars?
At least u can die there, wich is a nice place i think to die, so new and so far from the bad things that happens on earth.
By the way, you'll find life meaning just 10 seconds before u'll kill yourself.
Go ahead and off yourself you attention whore. You'll end up in hell. Enjoy.
I feel life has no greater purpose. We have no great war in our generation, no great depression, our great war is a war of the spirit, and our great depression is our lives. So, if I feel like saying "fuck it all", why can't I?
^Fight Club.
Enjoy your days.
Hope your "rebirth" however you may pull it off is enjoyable
Life is such a precious thing that no one should take away. We didn't create our bodies what right do we have to take away our lives? We all were created with a purpose and for a reason that is far greater than just living and dying. You have made a decision which will impact your eternal destiny. You have the capability to change that decision. I admit life isn't easy and I am sure you agree with that statement as well but those who leave a legacy isn't one who takes their own life but rather one who lives their life to the fullest. Seek God while he may be found.
Check out this website http://www.meant4more.com/knowingGod.htm
I love the dark humour in this blog, I just wish people could see the real meaning behind it. Remember people - suicide isn't sexy...
i would do it like kurt cobain if i were you...just seems like the best possible way.
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