It's strange if you think about it. How every day I cross out a square on my calender, confronting myself with the fact that I'm getting closer to the day of my suicide one X at a time, and I still don't feel the slightest hint of fear or regret.
I do want to thank all the people who are mailing me again though, especially the ones who are trying to stop me from going through with this; they're really great entertainment. One German guy mailed me this morning saying that he would like to bang me one last time before I kill myself, and videotape it if I didn't mind. He also added if I would "kindly not kill myself in his house" because he still lives with his mother...
I hardly have time to read all the mails though, so I usually just skim through them (sorry for anyone I haven't replied to!) What I do find hard to understand is that only one (albeit big) tv station has contacted me so far! People have been telling me not to kill myself, but honestly it seems like the world couldn't care less; I publicly announce my own suicide and the media doesn't even glance at it. I mean, it's all over the news if a terrorist blows himself up on a market in a suicide act, but when an innocent girl threatens to take her own life she doesn't even get a moment's attention. Quite bizarrre.
Not that I'm an attention whore though, I'm not one for camera's and spotlights, but it did strike me as odd. Oh well. Life's too short to be worrying about things like these I suppose; especially for me.
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nice to know your not killing your self, wierd political erm ... act your doing tho, o well, best of luck - outa interest, why hide the text behind suicide is not sexy?
It would be in poor taste for the media to glorify what you are doing by paying attention.
But some of us do care. I don't want to bang you before you go, but it would be nice to hear say a few things in a vlog, rather than just the written blog. We could hear things in the tone of your voice that might help us understand.
Maybe you should do something outrageous like "slap" athenewins in one of his videos, where he does nothing but talk - all the while knowing that he used you and your body for views.
woooo this must be some of those fake campaings of urs again and i hope u dont kill ur self if u really r serios about this loves from finland btw
still alive? please just go if you want to
I think you should "bang" that guy I mean he stils lives with his mom, so I don't think he get's a lot of pussy.
And if you do you be helping someone who's life must suck. And since your "leaving" because your unhappy it's only right to make someone happy. (I mean I'm sure you would like it if you had a reason to live right?)
Not that I wouldn't expect pessimism from reading your heading, but I'm sure the media just don't want to be accused of glorification.
Alright well heres what i think but i dont think you will care much because it looks like theres a lot of people telling you the same thing...and some who just dont care but A LOT of us do. This is ur decision but a lot of people do not thnk its the right one. just because ur life isnt going the way u want or something so horrible happened doesnt mean u just quit life...There is no Greater gift then life..and if ur life is that bad that u have to commit suicide because of it i want you to take a hard long look at ur life and see how bad it is compared to others that have it much worse i dont think you should do this at all and i hope you dont i really do I hope you can pull threw<3
It is cause no one takes you serious when I first stumbled on this page the first thing I did was chuckle a bit. You committing suicide is like Arnold Schwarzenegger doing gay porn... not gonna happen. The only way I could possibly take you serious is 1) take that dumb ass picture of you off who possibly can think bad about you when everyone wants to be you lol... And, 2 no one cares until you do it. Actions speak louder than words. Give us some insurance you will do it. IE cut your hand off and eat it show us you've gone fucking insane. Better yet cut your nipples off burn them to dust and snort away
hi, im sooo glad your not killing yourself. i was thinking why would you do it? wat reasons would you have... but then when i saw u were i was just relived because your a really nice person, specially to put up with athene :P
"Not that I'm an attention whore though, I'm not one for camera's and spotlights..."
Really?
Between Athene and this
I find that a little hard to believe.
you suck, life will be better in 80 days, why don't you kill right now?
The fact is, madame, that you ARE an attention whore, if you wanted to leave this world without catching the attentions you would just "hit the jackpot" fast, not waiting 90 days "crossing the calendar". If this is an experiment to study the ppl's reactions to this extreme decision (probably u're doing it with athene), well I hope you'll collect a lot of records and I give you a GL, if u really want to die, do it fast. Anyway I'll give you my opinion about life: it's like a videogame, maybe the realest mmorpg of the world, but if you decide to quit and see what is the next game, and maybe that game will be crap, then you can't reactivate the account of life. So play untill you're banned, trying to make what you want
who cares? i think most ppl dont ewen believe you :D
i just can understand girl
=/ i meab things cant be so bad or? i havenn at the bottom too but i rised from there :) and i read something abaut romances and sex, Cmon girl you are hot and i think you must got litle bit something in your brains too so :) i think you could find someone special :) but hey its your choise what you do not me or others who write to you...
sincierly: Slerp
btw dont mind the typos :D
you're an idiot.. but i must say you have nice boobs.
Hahaha
You say that you are not a Attention whore
Hahaha
Yea right...
Thats why you created this blog talking about yourself
and
that Advertisement with you being nude...the 400000 blowjobs and the rest of the shit to make a shocking impression and gain male supporters for your political fake party
Sorry dear but you are not convincing for some of us.
Not everyone is a sheep as you think
YOU ARE A ATTENTION WHORE and a spoiled bad personality.
No need trying deny it
At least be honest
Why don't you start your career as a whore in some street of Belgium
It will suit you just fine...
And by the way if you want to kill yourself
PLEASE BE MY GUEST
You will do the world a favor (and especially for Belgium)
One less SLUT in the world is not really going to be missed
shut the fuck up tramp.
If some of you people would have followed the news, you would've known the 90-day-jane thing.
Keep the flaming behind imo.
i dont get it. How could this mmovement help those who are seeking the path of 90days Jane? some might thought this for real and they would have taken their own lives before knowing the truth.
hey tania
first of all i would like to say that i think you are dumb but cince you dont care ill skip that part. you say that you going to kill yourself because there is no greater purpose in live. but isnt it easy to create one for yourself. you say there is no great war in our generation, but if you want you could just pick up a gun make your departure for irak or somthing this way your purpose will be to protect the iraky people and youll have your war
if you hate the irakys just pick you own war and your own puprpose.
this way youll probably die and have your great purpose
or you could forget the whole thing:D
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Ur crazy u wont do it..U have no reason ur doing this to get atention and stuff fuck you kill your self if u want who cares?!
already bitching about the fact that the news hasnt made a big deal out of you "publicly announcing" your plan to kill yourself eh? Funny, couple days ago you said you didnt CARE if anyone actually found this blog... just fucking die already you spoiled ass attention whore.
Hehe:"One German guy mailed me this morning saying that he would like to bang me one last time before I kill myself"
Omg i just fu*king dont understand people who are writting those things hey ho she is going to die and some stranger whants to bang her i just whant to say that those who are writting these just have some problems with brain.If i was a girl and i was going to suiodcide i wouldnt fuck with everyone like a bitch.
P.S sorry for my english i am just russian from estonia
Well of course there's no coverage on the media about you threatening to kill yourself. If they would start to do news reports of such topics, there wouldn't be any time for other news with all the teenage girls sending suicide threats just to get some attention.
well the merdia never care bout ppl till there dead and the only reason participate in ur blog is cus there nosy frankly u should kill urself the way plan to one day keep it quiet to urself then take a hole bunch of different drug includeing illegal ones down a shit load of alcohole and die whilest off ur face painless and fun
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