Thursday, February 14, 2008

82 Days Left...

Sooo... I went out with Brad for Valentine's today, Brad is evidently not his real name, but I'll call him that in the blog to not have to use his actual name or refer to him as "this guy from work".

Our date was kind of peculair to say the least. He's kind of cute and he's definitely intelligent but like twenty minutes into our conversation he started telling me about this younger brother he had, who committed suicide two years ago when he was 14; talk about an ironic subject. Apparently it was a pretty big thing here since he went about it by jumping off a building in the middle of the city in broad daylight. Brad kind of just kept repeating how devastated he was that his brother didn't even leave a letter or anything. I seriously thought he was gonna cry at one point, but thank god he didn't. No one likes a crybaby for Valentine's. ^^

It got me thinking about my final act though. Jumping off a building seems like a quick and painless way to go, and I honestly can't believe I hadn't even considered it yet. I would've thanked him for the inspiring idea, but I suppose that would've been a real conversation killer. I actually joked to him about if he would be devastated if I killed myself too, he said he would be, but my guess is that that's just sweet talk. After all, he doesn't even know me that well yet.

Anyhow, enough about emo Brad. I need something cheery for a change.

*Listens to My Chemical Romance.*

34 comments:

Anonymous said...

Which dress did you pick?

Anonymous said...

The date on day 82 is wrong, just thought you should know.

Anonymous said...

Hmm I seriously hope this is a joke or media stunt for you, but pick the option 2 because you dont look like a hooker on the street in that one.. Really liked the lingerie to. You looked very sexy.. But still i hope this is a joke. If it isn't, i will take crap on your grave. You shouldn't simply give your life away as if it was sparechange..

Anonymous said...

ATHENE YOU FUCKING LEGEND MATE.. WHAYYY


P.S. You should actually get a haircut.

P.P.S Loved the video of you getting killed by a mage if you didn't see it already :P

dforms said...

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My art

and this is total BS, shes not gonna do it lol.

Anonymous said...

hello, i don't really know you or you know me, so this may not help you at all, but if i can trust my senses still and it's you in some youtube videos...it is you?
regardless of who it is will read this, whether the beautiful Tania will ever read this at all! well, im not an expert on the subject of suicide and i will never agree with suicide. what i can tell you is that the reason i never met my grandfather was because he shot himself in the head and i never had the opportunity to meet him.
im not sure what your situation is, ive only just recently first seen your ninety-day blog. in any case i want for you to do one thing.
please think of your potential. think of it as being infinite, unbound potential. you have the means to achieve whatever life you want. i know this for sure because my grandmother was paraplegic and lived most of her life in a wheel chair, but she had the will and determination to laugh and make others laugh. she has passed away but i will always remember her holding me as a baby, tickling me and making me laugh. i dont care what her outside was, if she could move or not. what i do know is there was something magical inside her that reached out to me that i still carry with me every day. the memory of her smile.

Tania, you too have the gift of life...you too have a beautiful spirit and you too can make people feel better and always remember you. you need a fighting spirit, an ambitious spirit and you need to love yourself most and foremost

to reach me,
http://www.youtube.com/user/SousaMendes40
or octansvirtus@gmail.com

XOXO

Anonymous said...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jEX4DNYnYmU

Anonymous said...

better yet, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tcRiXOONqf0 !

Anonymous said...

this has been done before. how about trying something different?

Anonymous said...

Hi Tania would you like to go for a drink with me?
drop me an email on johnny-holiday@hotmail.com

Anonymous said...

i like my chemical romance too :D

Anonymous said...

This whole thing reminds me of the movie "Suicide Club". It's an asian movie about suicide, you should watch it.

btw, I'd wear number 2. You are beautiful, post more pictures :)

Anonymous said...

Ok guys...what's going on here ? This IS some kind of joke, i saw a couple of days ago another site - 90daysjane.com, and this is an exact copy of this one, only with another woman and other layout. But the text is the same ! Even the item that she is going to choose a dress, but this one filmed that she bought one. This site is ofline since yesterday i guess. I think it is some kind of mediastunt or anything...

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Pappen said...

wa een heet kipje...defently dress 3

super décolletée en mooie benen.

Wat zie jij er sexy uit en dat kleedje.

Diddy said...

tania tania tania ;)

Anonymous said...

quote: "Hmm I seriously hope this is a joke or media stunt for you, but pick the option 2 because you dont look like a hooker on the street in that one.. Really liked the lingerie to. You looked very sexy.. But still i hope this is a joke. If it isn't, i will take crap on your grave. You shouldn't simply give your life away as if it was sparechange.."
the one which have this written has no life or is just stupid... respect, ideas, everyone, love, peace!! its just life ... deal with it

Gio said...

Can you take Athens and Furious with you when you suicide please?

lol j/k

What do Furious and Athens have to say about this?

Anonymous said...

You've failed at life. You tried your best but it just wasn't good enough.
Nobody loves you.
You have no friends, no social life, no future.
Don't fucking wait any longer.
Kill yourself now, you are miserable and worthless.
There is literally not a single person on this planet who cares whether you live or die.
And it's never going to get better.
In twenty years, you'll still be a failure.
So just end your pathetic existence today.

Sincerely yours,
-Anonymous.

Anonymous said...

also, moonspeakfag.

Anonymous said...

Tania,

Ey ive read ur diary and stuff and it accually made me cry that u are gonna do suicide even though i don't know you.

I mean go get a husband, get kids, a house etc. Give love to people and live ur life to the fulest.
U're a pretty woman, intelligent to i don't know but i think so. Don't waste it Tania.
Well whatever u're decision will be, just live ur life as u want and be happy.

- Andre

Anonymous said...

fuck you,(with me please,i just read 'suicide isn't sexy'.
Son (girl) of a bitch,
Toni

Anonymous said...

I've heard ODing on heroen is the best way to go. A nice high, 100% painless. Only one way to find out, eh Tania?

Anonymous said...

For the love of god, do not jump off a building. My friend last year, died from falling off a 3 story building and died about 20 minutes later after landing. He was bleeding through his eyes, ears, and nose. Even if you jump off a taller building, there is still the chance of living for a little bit longer, just don't do it.

Anonymous said...

Why wear a dress? In fact, why wear anything?

Anonymous said...

The people who actually BELIEVE this bullshit are completely fucking retarded. They should also kill themselves, and possibly their families just to make sure the idiocy doesnt spread.

Anonymous said...

does she really mean she is gonna kill herself?

Elsewhere said...

People who fall from great height apparently black out before they hit the ground. Could be pretty handy.

Anonymous said...

People would do anything for money or popularity or both and then laugh behind the scene...

Have you ever heard about a real job? I mean like a real hard work in a factory, assembly line. That would help you and save many people from believing this *ehm*

Anonymous said...

im not going to ask why but im going to say dont
oh and fight club is my faviorite movie it made me see life different
your such a beautiful person and probably famous now because of youtube.(im saying your beautiful because you actually are, im not some stupid perv who is just looking at your chest) so dont keep it goin be strong live strong love strong

im only 15

-Owen

Anonymous said...

WHY WAIT 90days DO IT NOW!! DONT WASTE ANYONES TIME, USLESS SELFISH BITCH!

Anonymous said...

zotte mannen, waar wonen jullie ik kom jullie bezoeken ^^

Anonymous said...

haha i love the comments u ppl write suicide is a way to end all the pain one has and if i was,nt following tanias story right now id prob being dead so i say GL to ya girl on the day u die everyone with depresion should follow u

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