Wednesday, February 27, 2008

69 days left...

I sprained my ankle pretty bad today.

Now, for the record, I'm not the type to go crying when bad things happen, but truth be told I've been crying my eyes out for the last few hours. Not so much because of the physical pain of the injury though, cause even though it's really severe it's nothing compaired to the emotional and mental suffering this incident has brought me.

I am now facing the prospect of having to sit at home and do nothing for days, maybe weeks, that's right, weeks; that's how bad I may have sprained my ankle. And every time I walk I have to use crutches now. Crutches! And now I also have to have X-rays taken of my foot to make sure nothing's broken. I think I probably broke my entire foot, cause that's just logical, it's Murphy's Law; which is kind of the only law my life seems to abide by religiously.

God, I wish I was dead already.

Sadly enough I made a promise to you readers and due to it I will be alive for 71 more days, crutches or no crutches. So curse you all, cause my life just started sucking a whole lot more.

Everything just sucks.

31 comments:

Anonymous said...

God Plans While Man Plots.
Wish you Good luck with suicide attempts.

theres one thing that bothers me, if you have already decided to take your life, and nothing can really change your mind, then why wate for another 69 days,,

jsut go ahead and do it,

I dont know, why would you want to try something that exciting, :P

but taking away someting thats not yours, before the right them, and against God's will, will not help you much hereafter,

Anonymous said...

you can still give me a blowjob on crutches

Anonymous said...

I genuinely think that your stuff on Youtube was really funny, but here is becoming pathetic (or even sad?).
You should limit your action in showing your legs and tits on youtube, instead of using this type of suicide arguments.
And if you really want to suicide, go ahead, no need to do a web site

DJ Answer said...

Hi Tania,

I think I know what the issue is here. You're listening to stuff like Arcade Fire. If I was doing that I'd want to kill myself too.

Why don't you just put the Justice album on and everything will suddenly seem a whole lot better. I promise.

Also, tidy up. That makes you feel better too.

Life doesn't suck if you find the right people to share it with.

That's my hope anyway.

Fuck all this stuff about god. People are in charge of their own lives. They don't owe anything to anyone except themselves.

Over and out, x

Anonymous said...

OK so i see that you think that taking your life solves a problem that is bothering you or (is just for show)but if i learned something in these 19years i have lived is that even if life goes wrong and believe me i have lived some very stressfull situations and have experienced many falls, pains and mocks but in the end what did i do?I said fuck you all i'm doing what i always wanted to do TO DREAM and to express it out loud no fool is making my life a shame i'm proud to get this far, i'll get even futher if so sais GOD all mighty.Don't be looking at my comment as "another sees life in pink" i see life in deferent colours.I have groun in to a monster if you may say, but depression is not my defence, hell i wanted to take my life atleast 3 times and end it all, but then it came from nowhere, i wasn't a believer but then, i started to care i thought if i'm here then i'm here for a reason, the reason to life to try and make a change not for me but for someone else.You have hurt your legg tell me why?Yep hard to say why no it is there it had to happen only the strongest survive so stop being naive and start seeing that everything we do someone sometime did it before us, it's hard to be unique when so much people are claiming that the did something that has never being done.I'll never believe that man, we walk on ready made paths.If everyone start to be nicer then it will be wrong, strange isn't it but i am too much split in my thoughts that i have atleast a choise.And yeah suicide you have a choise too, but try to see other points of view try to give everything a chance to prove themselves.The wost thing i am afraid of is to not give a chance to things that need it.And yeah i believe in GOD i may be living in a country filled with lies i may be many but i want to be one thing and that is SOMETHING...So think of it, be confused by it, see the hidden background...See the sighns no one can decode...I am what i need, and what i hope, and dream...

Anonymous said...

Pero escolta nena. Si ets molt maca, el que has de fer es cumplir les teves fantasies mes íntimes. i ja de pasada... deixarme xarrupar-te una miqueta abans de que et matis.

Ja sé que sona egoista pero no ho es. Et vull xarrupar i et vull fer una romántica explosió a l´estomag, de veritat. Llastima que estiguis tan lluny.

Parlem.

Petons.

Anonymous said...

All I know is that the piece of your movie on youtube is hella entertaining.

Anonymous said...

I just stumbled accross your site and must comment. I'm sick of people thinking suicide is tragically artistic. All it is is lazy and selfish. Lazy in the sense that you really can't figure out something to do with yourself, because if you were as talented as you claim to be, you would figure out something less critical or something usefull to other people. Selfish in the sense that I'm going to feel bad for the people that have to clean you up.

duststorm said...

To be or not to be is that really the question?

Anonymous said...

Hi lady,

That’s life, one day you are running and laughing and the other you find yourself with neck protection thinking, “I’m so unlucky”.

But you are not. Now you are connected in some sense with a lot of people that recently sprained their ankle too!! It sounds like a bad joke, but is not, think about it, lot of people had some kind of little leg lesions in the last days, somewhere in some place, and the most of them are worse than yours, but now you all are in house with a kind of protection stuff in your legs. You are not alone even in this situation (and I’m sure that lot of friends are coming to your house with some kind of gifts or something and their companies, I would..)

It’s a pity for your brand new movie, but, you have now the challenge to introduce a change in your character (I think anyway that the film is probably finished yet).

Very important: I really think you should put the “Suicide isn’t sexy” tab in a better place in your site so anyone can see it, because I hate to read that poor people confessions in this comment pool and is not fair that 50% of your readers knows that this is a fake a not the most newest or impulsive ones.

It is only my point of view.

Kisses in your leg and going up (yes, I’m a gentleman, lady).

Suicide song 4 today:

-Muse:

Our time is running out.

Sincerely Yours,

40.001 Admirer,

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Anonymous said...

P.S:

Your "iPower illuminated team" should buy a digital camera, really cheap ones over there, and take a picture of your beautiful Anke instead searching the word Anke in google and then go to the “search image” tab to get one, not because steal images is a bad thing (everybody does) just because, this is suppose to be a personal blog, so I think that it would be nice to your readers to contain personal images.

Sincerely Yours,

40.001 Admirer,

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Anonymous said...

wow you guys are idiots.
go back to tania's webpage, and then click the 'suicide isn't sexy' tab in the right hand column.

hapyp reading

Anonymous said...

I see where your going with this, but don't you think that by doing this you are also encouraging others with low self-esteem to mimic your suicide methods for real (others may really commit suicide), thus your campaign backfiring?

JBrownPhotoDesign said...

I don’t quite understand why you’re acting this way… your video was amazing and I was even gonna compliment it but… idk now! This is kinda “LAME”! Even if you did break your ankle and are on cruches for another 69days there are people out there in much worse condition than you! So, no I’m not gonna tell you to go commit suicide NOW or anything like that… I’m simply gonna say grow up and then finish that video! My respect toward your work is gone now… tell me when you’ve decided to grow up and I’d love to watch the second part to that movie but til then… I’m done watchin’ ur vids.

michael said...

you are not more than a shallow person who worships attention....i wouldn't go out on date with you.

Anonymous said...

Rocks, keep doing what your doing. respect to IP!

And you look simply amazing :)


And also, there´s a reason that the "suicide isn´t sexy" button is consealed, the thing about this is to make people read then react.
They read the text, they get shocked. If they see the button, they will reflect on what their thoughts, and hopefully take action. Anyways that´s what i think. And just by looking at the responses on the texts. well...job well done!

Reamember, the responses can help someone who is going thru this, so don´t stop writing responses just couse it´s "just" a campain.

John Patrick said...

Dear Tania,
I am so sorry to hear you hurt your ankle. I will send my best thoughts your way - with the hope that my thoughts can help you heal quickly. We love you Tania.

- John

Anonymous said...

Boohoo, crutches, talking about emo.

Anonymous said...

FUCK OFF BITCH I HOPE YOU GET KANKER AND DIE YOU TOELESS RETARD PISS OF SHIT EXPLOITS ALL OVER THE PLACE EHEHEHEHE.ROT OP.

Anonymous said...

Hey guy up top! Our lives our ours and no one elses! if we took our life we take our life not gods! she needs to kill herself already. do it so everyone forgets you quicker! the longer your hear the longer it takes people to forget you. do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!do it!

Anonymous said...

hey john! your a deuch! grow a pair man! shes a fucking looser! stop feeding her lameness! you should kill yourself too

Anonymous said...

Sprained ankle. That's bad. Look at the bright side though: you could have been killed!

Anonymous said...

Like i said before...

The best lolladin in the world (Athene) wil Ress you... or put lay on hands on you.

Don't worry... you got Athene.

Anonymous said...

I hope you live. I hope you live and suffer every minute of your long life.

Anonymous said...

I cant wait to see you not commit a suicide... I mean seriously, if you'd do it you would have done it already. But if you choose to do it anyway, please capture it on a film, would love to see it.

Anonymous said...

I left my first comment on day 70. I have since decided to leave a comment every day. You may ask why, and it is mostly because I feel like it is my duty to. I feel as though you are my friends. All of you. Even the person reading this comment. So, from now on my comments may or may not reflect your blog, but I am pretty sure there will be a point made from something you blogged. Anyways, about the sprained ankle. Its funny, well, its not funny you sprained your ankle. But I sprained mine as well. Let me tell you about it. I have a side job from my main job. My side job is professional newspaper carrier. You see because either you are a noob or a pro, and I am pro. Anyway, I slipped on some ice, heard my ankle crack, fell to the ground, cussed alot, and hopped back to my vehicle. It was all good the doctor gave me some pain pills, a brace, and some anti inflammatorys. Then five days later when my ankle was feeling so much better it snowed again, and I slipped on some more ice. This time it was so much worse. I fell to the ground, rolled around a bit, cussed, screamed angryly to the top of my lungs. It freakin hurt. I thought I broke it. It has been a weak, and I still can't walk on it. WTF! By the way reading some of these other comments on here makes me realize how many people do not truely value another persons life. How sick is it to antangonize someone to commit suicide. If you don't think she is going to do it, but you want her dead anyway. Then why don't you do it yourself? Yeah, kill her yourslef? You dont, because you are just a noob, and you don't have the guts to puhn anybody.
Thanks to:
Creator (aka God), the Ipower crew and of course Tania. Also thanks to those who value their life and the lifes of others.
-Jason
Familian1111@yahoo.com

Anonymous said...

your pro or your noob.
thats life

j3lm0

Anonymous said...

This is sparta!!!

Unknown said...

athene is rigth!!
"bitches have less brain!"
i have 20 and you 25, we dont know nothing about live!
go have a live! the death we already have!
you leave in belgium?
i leaved in bruxels for 1 year!
( i loved)
its a nice place to leave!
go get a live!

Kai said...

Sorry to hear about you going to kill yourself (or already have) obviously no one can really stop you. Also how did you sprain your ankle because the same day I also sprained mine playing hockey probably going to guess thats not how you hurt yours.

Anonymous said...

I believe you have the sexiest ankle x-ray ever captured.
Also, I know exactly what music you should play at the end.
If you desire company, I will form a Japanese suicide pact with you so you won't be alone.
Good luck,
Love,
Bronze.